i just bought this.

and i'm really effing excited. I can't wait to put it on my new wall at my new home. yay. :-)

am i boring?

...because mostly what I blog about is food? I definitely don't consider this a "food blog" - but I find that that is what is usually on my mind. And if I find something healthy and also yummy, I feel like it is my moral obligation to share it with the world.

So, today's item of indulgence is this. I really wasn't sure about it, so it's been sitting in my freezer for about three weeks. I finally ate it today, and realized that the last three weeks of my life have had no meaning because I hadn't yet enjoyed this amazing feast. It was effing delish. So yeah, a little bit of an overstatement, because the last three weeks have actually been very meaningful, but yes, this meal is a tasty treat. I'm full, I'm happy, and I'm healthy.

Also, I have started making a great drink at the office with things that are here for our enjoyment and do not require an expensive trip to Starbucks. Basically, brew a green tea, add some crystal light lemonade mix, and voila - you have a green tea lemonade, except you didn't pay 500 dollars for it. Ok, I will admit, the s-bucks version does come in a fun cup, and it's really only about $3, but i'd rather have free, thankyouverymuch.

LIFE. Yeah. Pretty much. Went home to MD this weekend. Here's the main gist: Crab feast (you bet your ass), boating with mom (fun until she and her boyfriend got into a screaming match and i wanted to jump off the boat and die), and some good old fashion RELAXIN'. I needed it, but not the wanting to jump off the boat part. Very dramatic argument, totally unnecessary, but I would still rate this trip as a "good" trip home. Not great, but good.

I'm moving this weekend. FUCK.YES. I cannot describe how excited I am. MINE MINE MINE IT'S ALL GONNA BE MIIIIINNNNNNEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! .

scall-lip.

day two of burrito face. and still in love. currently eating one now. maybe a tad too much hot sauce on it, but i'm enjoying the lip burn. ...something to do, i guess. ha. ?

...great din i made two nights ago which provided a full two meals (and still have some leftover!):

I'll call it the Whole Foods "The Sample Bitch Got Me" meal: (she really did, she totally got me.)

1 pkg frozen bay scallops- just thaw them in the sink in a collander for 10 mins. no need for all that annoying thawing they tell you to do.

1 pkg fresh mushrooms. any kind you like, really. i prefer the standard 'shroom.

some fresh basil

some rice (i used the whole foods brand jasmine rice (frozen, resealable package - which by the way is VERY yum and convenient.) :)

garlic, butter, olive oil. - for cooking the scallops, as much or as little as you'd like (i used just a bit to try and keep it healthy and it was great).

and lots of love.

1) cook 'dem scallops in the olive oil/garlic/butter fab blend for a few mins, add mushrooms and basil. cook till done. you'll know. scallops will be golden brown on parts but not all over.

2) serve over rice

3) eat that shit, because it's amazing.


**rant of the day: i bought honey (at whole foods, it's effing $4.) and I got home, tried to pour it on my SEVEN DOLLAR loaf of damn bread (another insane buy) and it was expired. the store sold me expired (by one day) honey. i realized, oh, i thought the "organic" part of it was the fact that it was hard as a rock with these strange crystals in it and impossible to get out of the little bear. No, it's because it was damn old. How can they sell me expired honey? Doesn't honey last for years? that store hasn't even been open for years.

So i immediately thought, I bet other stores send the Nashville store their expired stuff to sell to us, because they think we're stupid and won't look at labels. That was my first thought. How ridiculous am I? BUT - I didn't look at the label, so maybe it's true??

I'm taking my god damn $4 honey back. And going to Kroger, and getting a $2 honey and a chocolate bar. SO THERE. fuckers.

i love you, burrito. it was good while it lasted. as i take my last two (maybe three - i'm not sure yet) bites, I bid thee farewell. you have been good to me. amen.

burrito face.

currently, i am eating a burrito so large that it is giving me burrito face.

what's ok with this issue, is that there it not one thing in the burrito that is bad for me. so i'm ok with being a piggly wiggly. (side note - i just finished it. it was delicious.)

i don't know what my deal is lately.

1) i'm starving all the time. i can't seem to get satisfied. i seriously have thoughts of gluttony often. the things i would eat if i could....

2) i'm kind of in a slump right now. i don't think that i'm unhappy with my life. i have a great job that i'm lucky to have, even if it stresses me out on a daily basis. i have an amazing boyfriend who loves me for some reason which i will never understand. i have a great family who also, for some reason, (probably because they have to) loves me.

I honestly think I'm just bored. I'm about to move into a one bedroom apartment in ten days. holy hell am i excited. i am so ready to have my own place. no one elses shit laying around but mine. i must say, my roomates don't really live at our house due to various reasons... so i have had some experience living basically alone, but it will still be so different. i'm pretty sure that after "officially" living on my own, i will never want to live with anyone again...that scares me. what about Cord? ha!

so, I think with the move will come a refreshed attitude. i also haven't taken a single day off all year, so this upcoming holiday weekend in maryland will be just what the doctor ordered!! i am just ready for a change. SO ready.

3) why do people have to be downright rude? i'm a nice person, god damnit. get over yourself. seriously..... if you are that unhappy with yourself and can't figure out how to be nice to others, stop talking to me. kiss my ass, for real.

have a great day, everyone. :-)

_happy_may_

number one. dude in the cube near me - STOP HUMMING. please.

number two. eat these. they are good and very low cal for a granola-ish bar.

number three. virago = effing expensive, but totally worth it.

number four. i get to go home to MD in less than two weeks. i cannot express how EXCITED i am to get the hell out of here for a few days. i miss my family so much. it's been since the holidays.

number five. i'm moving in three weeks. holy shit. it's times like these when i wish i had magical powers. FO SHO.

happy may. rain, please go away. thanks.

also....

because if this were me reading this blog, and this blog belonged to someone i knew.... i would hope that they would also put a disclaimer in there that no, the below blog was not about you.  whoever "you" may be.  this is not directed at anyone in particular, just a self-reflection.  

that is all.

a few words

angry.

irritated.

frustrated.

exhausted.

hungry (constantly).

open-minded.

educated.

loved.

hurt.

ignored.

overlooked.

fat.

skinny.

nope, fat again.

over-worked.

guilty.

not guilty.

excited.

unmotivated.

lonely.

intelligent.

mature.

poor.

fortunate.

over-stimulated.

under-stimulated.

moving on....

...some words to describe my life over the past few weeks. it's been a month full of ups and downs. i've learned quite a bit about myself and those around me. i'm going through a very transitional time right now. i think i'm finally growing up. when we get older, certain things and their importance begin to shift. (is it bad that I accidentally typed "shit" instead of "shift"?) i'm beginning to realize what is truly important, and what really doesn't mean jack shit.

i miss my family. people who have the option of seeing their loved ones whenever they want don't realize how lucky they are. at least i was brave enough to move 800 miles away from everything that i knew, and i've created a life down here. a damn good life. sometimes i just don't realize how good it is. and i've earned it. i made it happen. no one else.

i've decided i won't let other people have an influence on my happiness any more. only i can foster my own happiness.... why should i rely on other people to make my life happy for me? as my detox bag of tea read this morning: self-reliance conquers any difficulty. that is so true. you can only rely on yourself. screw everyone else. those who truly matter will show you that they matter.

*disclaimer - this is not in any way reflective of my relationship. i'm happier than a clam. i just miss the guy. he works constantly. i feel guilty for making him feel guilty that we never see each other.... so no, this is not about him. it's about me, god damnit.