Yes, you heard me.
In case you live on Mars and don't know who I'm referring to, I'm referring to Mr. Edward Cullen. The vamire love in the Twilight books. I had a friend suggest to me that I read these books about a year ago. I totally blew her off. Stupid me. I don't watch a lot of TV or read the news (too depressing) so I'm not very up on current events. I hadn't really heard of this new fascination with this Twilight book/movie/LIFESTYLE. hah.
On my trip home for T-Giving, my cousin Danielle (only a few years younger than me) urged me to read it. She let me borrow the book and said that she was on her third time reading it. OK, I thought.... I'll give it a go. ALL I CAN SAY IS THANK YOU DANIELLE. I read the book in Jamaica. Took me 4 days. I bought New Moon, the 2nd book, in the airport and I'm getting close to being through it....though I don't think I've quite reached the climax yet. I'm READY FOR IT! I've already been lent 3 and 4. I am bringing them both home on Christmas and I'm sure I will read them both. THANK YOU LIZ! :)
I saw the movie last night. I must admit, it was better than I thought it would be. Some of the characters were spot on to what I had imagined in my head. The author really is descriptive and obviously does a great job. The movie was similar enough...a few things were different, but not big enough to really bother me. I do wish it had been longer though...I guess I just didn't want it to end, just like I don't want the books to end!! :( This is why I hate reading. Because it has to end....
What strikes me funny is that I totally went to the website for the movie or the book or something..and watched a video of the actors that play Bella and Edward on the Today show. They both seemed a little bit like snotty, actually. I think they were just so surprised with the cult following this movie/book would have....and the immediate superstardom they both have been thrusted into at warp speed. However, any ill feelings that I had toward them were completey erased when I saw the movie.
I will say this - I didn't get why everyone was so gaga over the actor that plays Edward. It was funny in the Today show interview when he was saying that he's not sure why these girls associate him to actually be Edward.....and I was like, OH girls - he's just an actor!! He's not the actual character - the super sexy vampire that loves Bella.... he's not even that cute!
But then, when I saw the movie... yep, he's Edward. My imaginary character that I had established in my mind has been totally erased. There's a new sexy vampire in town. I loved his arm hair. I don't know why, but it was hot. I pretty much loved everything about him. Maybe because I'm in love with the character...and totally made the association that all these high school seniors are doing. Oh, what a poor guy...casted to play the sexiest imaginative thing EVER. He must never get laid....
Regardless, I'm in heart. With the story, the characters...now if Cord could just turn into a blood sucking monster for me.... :)
Oh, and Merry Christmas everyone. Safe travels, and I will most likely not write again until the new year. Definitely ready for a fresh, new year.... aah..
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
hello, world.
I just realized that I've been gone for quite some time.....not that it matters as I'm sure that very few people read this....but I like the theraputic nature of blogging. So hello, world.
Oh, the holidays!! Oh, Jamaica!! Lots to talk about...here's a brief synopsis of the past month:
*Decorate the house for Xmas
*Try to be bikini-ready for Jamaica
*Go to MD for best friend's father's funeral (very, very sad and unexpected)
*Stress out about my not yet ready bikini body (fuck it.)
*Go to MD for Turkey Day! What a fun weekend....I absolutely love my family.
*Eat entirely too much to even consider getting in a bikini.
*Go go Jamaica for seven days. Have quite possibly the best vacation ever and come back well-rested and totally disconnected from my life in Nashville. I'm so serious about my snowcone stand idea.....and I'm currently accepting applications.
*Didn't care at all about my bikini body because I had such an amazing time.
That's pretty much it. The past month of my life. Very full.
I won't really go into many details of the above list, but I will brag a little about Jamaica. Holy hell. Can I please go back? Really? Why the hell do I live in Nashville and not Montego Bay?
So basically, I go somewhere tropical with my mom and sister every December. Long story short, she owns a Swimming Pool company and the distributor she gets her supplies from sends the dealers on "free" trips every year. Since she brings both my sister and I, and we stay for two extra days, there is a buy-in, but still, a lot of what we do is totally paid for by someone other than us, and we take full advantage!
This year we stayed at the Half Moon Resort and Spa in Montego Bay, Jamaica. Do yourself a favor and check this website out. If you EVER go to Jamaica, stay here. It's so worth it. Also, go the all inclusive route. It's also totally worth it. It is so nice going to a resort and not having to look at how much every dirty banana drink and lobster tail cost!! The resort is absolutely perfect. Beautiful, clean, friendly, refined, HUGE (500 acres!) and just so relaxing....this is my second time there, and it was even better than the first time. We even requested to stay in the same suite because we loved it so much the last time!
We did everything we wanted to do: ATE, ATE, ATE (best meals included the conch trio with lobster tail, and of course, the local jerk chicken we went and picked up on our last night), drank a ton (my favorites being the Dirty Banana and the Miami Vice), took lots of pictures, and just enjoyed ourselves!! My favorite thing we did, however, was the Parasailing. 400 feet up in the air drug behind a boat in the Carribean. Yeah. Freak yeah.
I'll put up a few pics, but they just won't do it justice. I absolutely love Jamaica, and I love Jamaicans. They are so proud of their country, and once we explained that we've been there twice and will continue to come back because we just love it, they all were calling us "family." I got such a warm and fuzzy feeling from that. That someone I have only one thing in common with - a love for Jamaica - can consider me "family" in a sense. Very cool.
Something that I learned that I didn't know before (my foodie friends will enjoy this):
The local Jamaican food is incredible. Jerk chicken, that's a given..... but there were two things that I had never heard of before that I ate this week, and it was seriously life changing.
1) "Festival." From the sound of that, you really have no idea what it is, right? Well, it's bread. Holy moly bread! Try to imagine a hush puppy mixed with a funnel cake, in breadstick form. Yeah, you're mouth is watering, isn't it?
2) "Breadfruit." This was probably my favorite thing all week (besides the local coffee (MMM)). It's a fruit that when cooked, has the taste and consistency of bread. So basically, it's like eating bread, but it's fruit!! My soulmate. Our local meal we got from Scotchie's was Jerk Chicken, Jerk Pork, Festival, a sweet potato (which is totally different than our sweet potato) and some breadfruit. Life changing.
What's neat about it is that there were breadfruit trees all over the resort, and the workers would just climb the freaking trees and grab the fruit to cook it. I loved talking to them about it! And then knowing what they were doing when they were climbing the trees ;-)
MOTHER BITCH. As I sit here writing this blog, a freaking JAMAICA commercial came on TV!! I serioulsly almost cried. Bob Marley's "One Love" was playing, and all it said was "once you go, you know." That sums it up. I suggest that everone go. Please, go...... aaah.....
Well, I guess that's all I have to say. I am going to be suffering from post-vacation depression for a while, so I apologize to anyone who has to come in contact with me over the next week or so. At least the holidays are coming up and I can try to switch into that gear and distract myself...
aaah....breadfruit.
Oh, the holidays!! Oh, Jamaica!! Lots to talk about...here's a brief synopsis of the past month:
*Decorate the house for Xmas
*Try to be bikini-ready for Jamaica
*Go to MD for best friend's father's funeral (very, very sad and unexpected)
*Stress out about my not yet ready bikini body (fuck it.)
*Go to MD for Turkey Day! What a fun weekend....I absolutely love my family.
*Eat entirely too much to even consider getting in a bikini.
*Go go Jamaica for seven days. Have quite possibly the best vacation ever and come back well-rested and totally disconnected from my life in Nashville. I'm so serious about my snowcone stand idea.....and I'm currently accepting applications.
*Didn't care at all about my bikini body because I had such an amazing time.
That's pretty much it. The past month of my life. Very full.
I won't really go into many details of the above list, but I will brag a little about Jamaica. Holy hell. Can I please go back? Really? Why the hell do I live in Nashville and not Montego Bay?
So basically, I go somewhere tropical with my mom and sister every December. Long story short, she owns a Swimming Pool company and the distributor she gets her supplies from sends the dealers on "free" trips every year. Since she brings both my sister and I, and we stay for two extra days, there is a buy-in, but still, a lot of what we do is totally paid for by someone other than us, and we take full advantage!
This year we stayed at the Half Moon Resort and Spa in Montego Bay, Jamaica. Do yourself a favor and check this website out. If you EVER go to Jamaica, stay here. It's so worth it. Also, go the all inclusive route. It's also totally worth it. It is so nice going to a resort and not having to look at how much every dirty banana drink and lobster tail cost!! The resort is absolutely perfect. Beautiful, clean, friendly, refined, HUGE (500 acres!) and just so relaxing....this is my second time there, and it was even better than the first time. We even requested to stay in the same suite because we loved it so much the last time!
We did everything we wanted to do: ATE, ATE, ATE (best meals included the conch trio with lobster tail, and of course, the local jerk chicken we went and picked up on our last night), drank a ton (my favorites being the Dirty Banana and the Miami Vice), took lots of pictures, and just enjoyed ourselves!! My favorite thing we did, however, was the Parasailing. 400 feet up in the air drug behind a boat in the Carribean. Yeah. Freak yeah.
I'll put up a few pics, but they just won't do it justice. I absolutely love Jamaica, and I love Jamaicans. They are so proud of their country, and once we explained that we've been there twice and will continue to come back because we just love it, they all were calling us "family." I got such a warm and fuzzy feeling from that. That someone I have only one thing in common with - a love for Jamaica - can consider me "family" in a sense. Very cool.
Something that I learned that I didn't know before (my foodie friends will enjoy this):
The local Jamaican food is incredible. Jerk chicken, that's a given..... but there were two things that I had never heard of before that I ate this week, and it was seriously life changing.
1) "Festival." From the sound of that, you really have no idea what it is, right? Well, it's bread. Holy moly bread! Try to imagine a hush puppy mixed with a funnel cake, in breadstick form. Yeah, you're mouth is watering, isn't it?
2) "Breadfruit." This was probably my favorite thing all week (besides the local coffee (MMM)). It's a fruit that when cooked, has the taste and consistency of bread. So basically, it's like eating bread, but it's fruit!! My soulmate. Our local meal we got from Scotchie's was Jerk Chicken, Jerk Pork, Festival, a sweet potato (which is totally different than our sweet potato) and some breadfruit. Life changing.
What's neat about it is that there were breadfruit trees all over the resort, and the workers would just climb the freaking trees and grab the fruit to cook it. I loved talking to them about it! And then knowing what they were doing when they were climbing the trees ;-)
MOTHER BITCH. As I sit here writing this blog, a freaking JAMAICA commercial came on TV!! I serioulsly almost cried. Bob Marley's "One Love" was playing, and all it said was "once you go, you know." That sums it up. I suggest that everone go. Please, go...... aaah.....
Well, I guess that's all I have to say. I am going to be suffering from post-vacation depression for a while, so I apologize to anyone who has to come in contact with me over the next week or so. At least the holidays are coming up and I can try to switch into that gear and distract myself...
aaah....breadfruit.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
"sirius"-ly..... classical
I have been rocking out (well, not really rocking out...but happily listening) to Sirius Pops Classical Station today at work.
It has put me in the best mood ever! It's great!! Not only have I been able to enjoy some of my favorite classical songs, but also great movie theme songs that are so beautiful.
In the past hour, besides some amazing Mozart and Beethoven, I've heard the Titanic theme song, The Star Wars theme song, and the Wizard of Oz theme song!!! All of which are gorgeous tunes. WOW, I can't wait till the Holiday Season really kicks into gear - this station will ROCK! Oh, my poor work neighbors. Don't worry ladies, I'll keep it quiet. :-)
I've been on a serious classical kick lately. I recently purchased on iTunes a recording of the Mozart Clarinet Concerto in A major, a song that literally was my life for about four years. I learned and tried to master all three movements of the Concerto. After about four years, I finally had mastered it to the best of my ability...My last recital of high school, I was able to play the 1st Movement with our symphony. I need to find that recording - it would be funny to hear that now. I even played that piece in college and used it for my final recital. Unfortunately, I had to let the clarinet go to work harder in my classes and try to pursue the RIM degree, which was challenging enough on its own without having to practice 2-3 hours a day! Clarinet is one thing that I used to be really, really, really good at, that I cannot believe I let go. But listening to that Concerto, still remembering the fingerings (no, perverts) and the way to play it, really puts me in a happy place.
With that said, I've decided to try and get back into it. I just can't throw away years and years of practice and competition and tryouts and beautiful music (and my parents money). So, I'm looking to join a local (not professional, just fun) symphony or orchestral group. No big commitment, maybe just one night a week and a concert here and there... I've looked online for some, and I can't seem to find any! Do we not have any local orchestras here? Is it the NSO or bust? Help!
Yay for classical.
It has put me in the best mood ever! It's great!! Not only have I been able to enjoy some of my favorite classical songs, but also great movie theme songs that are so beautiful.
In the past hour, besides some amazing Mozart and Beethoven, I've heard the Titanic theme song, The Star Wars theme song, and the Wizard of Oz theme song!!! All of which are gorgeous tunes. WOW, I can't wait till the Holiday Season really kicks into gear - this station will ROCK! Oh, my poor work neighbors. Don't worry ladies, I'll keep it quiet. :-)
I've been on a serious classical kick lately. I recently purchased on iTunes a recording of the Mozart Clarinet Concerto in A major, a song that literally was my life for about four years. I learned and tried to master all three movements of the Concerto. After about four years, I finally had mastered it to the best of my ability...My last recital of high school, I was able to play the 1st Movement with our symphony. I need to find that recording - it would be funny to hear that now. I even played that piece in college and used it for my final recital. Unfortunately, I had to let the clarinet go to work harder in my classes and try to pursue the RIM degree, which was challenging enough on its own without having to practice 2-3 hours a day! Clarinet is one thing that I used to be really, really, really good at, that I cannot believe I let go. But listening to that Concerto, still remembering the fingerings (no, perverts) and the way to play it, really puts me in a happy place.
With that said, I've decided to try and get back into it. I just can't throw away years and years of practice and competition and tryouts and beautiful music (and my parents money). So, I'm looking to join a local (not professional, just fun) symphony or orchestral group. No big commitment, maybe just one night a week and a concert here and there... I've looked online for some, and I can't seem to find any! Do we not have any local orchestras here? Is it the NSO or bust? Help!
Yay for classical.
Monday, November 3, 2008
i like how the day sounds
So, update on things in the Muggins world.....
H-ween was a blast. It was perfect. Hung out with some friends, old and new, and had a great time with the Cordster. He got wasted, which is always funny....and I sipped a few brewskies and felt great the next day. Mighty sore, however, from dancing all night in wedge boots. ooh those calves were killin' me! I was a "native american" and Cord was something that we're still not sure of.....I think the end result was "Joe the Plumber if he were to dress up for Halloween as Larry the Ladybug." He sported a flannel shirt, plunger, and children's size ladybug costume. He completely adopted this persona which he kept running for the entire night. See for yourself:
The weekend was nice. It felt long. It always feels longer when I actually get out and do something on a Friday night. I liked this weekend. Got to see a bit of the boyfriend, did a photo shoot of my friend's 6 month old son, (which turned out pretty dang well and I'm pleased - I'll post those when I'm finished editing) and just hung out....Cooked quite a bit, relaxed. It was nice.
Still on the health train....it's trucking right along. As of November 1, I'm in super stealth mode. I go to Jamaica December 1, so I want to feel at least somewhat bikini-ready by then. I don't have many food updates, except one new product that I'm trying at this very moment, Special K protein water packets. Only 30 cals, you mix them in with a glass of water, and enjoy. I'm trying the pink lemonade flavor right now. Pretty tasty actually. Not too much of the fake-sugar taste.....which I usually can't stand. They are sweet, but you can dilute them pretty well to your liking. They have protein in them so they help curb hunger, which is something I'm constantly battling. Why am I so damn HUNGRY?? :)
So, we'll see if they work....other than that, I'm on a lean cuisine lunch week. I know they are super high in sodium, but they really worked last time I lost all the weight because of the portion/calorie control. So we'll see how long it takes before I'm sick of them!
Ugh - I'm eating one now (I had to take a break on my blogging till lunch) and I must say, the chicken is LOW quality. It's very grizzily and the entire dish doesn't have much taste. Hmm...bummer. We'll see how the other meals turn out this week.
I just had an eye appointment. I'm getting new glasses. Tres excited!!
Friday, October 31, 2008
happy-ween
Happy Halloween!! I need to get some damn energy before I go dance my balls off tonight!
Cord is being Larry, the working class ladybug. No, I'm not kidding. I was going to wear my mom's Cleopatra costume from the 70's...but I tried it on and it was a no-go. So I braved party city on the night before Halloween (holy fuck) and got some accessories - I got an Indian Headress (headdress?) whatever... and a Native-American inspired necklace. All totaling under $10, so I was happy. I'm going to figure something out for what I'm gonna wear on the body, but I'm sure something brown will be just fine. So we'll see! Really, what I want to do is sit home and watch scary movies and not do a DAMN thing, but I guess I'm still young and I must go out and live it up....blech!!
But, regardless, happy halloween to all you ghouls and goblins out there!
So those are our pumpkins.....Cord's is the special one on the left, mine is on the right - an attempt to be Jack from the Nightmare before Xmas movie!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
de-freaking-lish.
I am currently eating for lunch this amazing concoction that I could literally eat every day for every meal:
Very simple, but so freaking yummy.
One Flour tortilla (the carb conscious kind - actually very tasty!)
One slice of low fat american cheese
Desert Pepper Trading Co. Pinto Bean Dip (as much as you want b/c it's amazingly healthy!)
Desert Pepper Trading Co. Corn, Black Bean, and Roasted Red Pepper Salsa (same as above with as much as you want!!)
A bit of homeade guac, which I make just using one avocado, 1/2 of a tomato, diced, and a little bit of diced onion and garlic powder, and S&P.
Basically just take the tortilla, load up half of it with the cheese and the bean dip, toast in an oven or toaster oven for a bit, then pull out, load up with the salsa and guac, and FREAKING INHALE. OMG. omg.omg. it's so good. mmmmm..... i want more. :(
Everything's going great! Great workout last night, wii fitted the night before, I've lost another pound or two (according to mr. wii fit man - haha) and I'm on the excited side of food again, well at least this week.
I am going home to MD for a good friend's wedding this weekend so I will be eating amazing food (I believe I'm having MD crabcakes and chicken for the wedding dinner - holy hell) and am not going to even THINK about how bad any of it is for me - because it will be de-freaking-lish.
Very simple, but so freaking yummy.
One Flour tortilla (the carb conscious kind - actually very tasty!)
One slice of low fat american cheese
Desert Pepper Trading Co. Pinto Bean Dip (as much as you want b/c it's amazingly healthy!)
Desert Pepper Trading Co. Corn, Black Bean, and Roasted Red Pepper Salsa (same as above with as much as you want!!)
A bit of homeade guac, which I make just using one avocado, 1/2 of a tomato, diced, and a little bit of diced onion and garlic powder, and S&P.
Basically just take the tortilla, load up half of it with the cheese and the bean dip, toast in an oven or toaster oven for a bit, then pull out, load up with the salsa and guac, and FREAKING INHALE. OMG. omg.omg. it's so good. mmmmm..... i want more. :(
Everything's going great! Great workout last night, wii fitted the night before, I've lost another pound or two (according to mr. wii fit man - haha) and I'm on the excited side of food again, well at least this week.
I am going home to MD for a good friend's wedding this weekend so I will be eating amazing food (I believe I'm having MD crabcakes and chicken for the wedding dinner - holy hell) and am not going to even THINK about how bad any of it is for me - because it will be de-freaking-lish.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Back to the health train!!
Pretty inspired today. Went shopping last night. Spent a frick ton of money. $168!! EEK!
Got lots of yummies. Came up with and found some fun healthy snack/meal ideas - so I'm inspired yet again. Wow, this is such a wave of ups and downs. And I ate so poorly this weekend that I don't think I've lost a single pound since the beginning! I actually feel fatter!! wah. Whatever. I'm doing the best I can right now!
Some things that I've made or am planning on making:
- (made these last night) - Pumpkin, oatmeal, apple butter "cookie-cakes" I'm calling them, because they are SO moist and cake-y.....but they're super healthy (no oil or butter and mostly brown instead of white sugar), and they're delicious. Threw a couple choc. chips in a few and some raisins/pecans in others.... yUM!
- (made this last night too) - Chicken, rice, lots of veggies and low fat cream cheese/cream chic. soup/evap milk/little bit of cheese casserole. It's so filling b/c of the rice that you only have to eat a little bit!! I'm gonna have several meals out of this!! But I'm too anxious to make my other fun things so I gave a huge thing of it to Cord. :)
- (making this tonight) - Organic Whole Wheat Mac N Cheese, meatless crumbles, tom, green pep, onion, cheese, spices casserole!!! I made this for EM's debate watching party and it turned out really good!! So I'm pumped about that.
- also got some great snacky things and healthy bean dips and whatnot. Gonna make my own guac tonight, which will be fun. Good times.
Hopefully this will make up for the 14 lbs of food I inhaled at Loveless Cafe Sat. Night....
Got lots of yummies. Came up with and found some fun healthy snack/meal ideas - so I'm inspired yet again. Wow, this is such a wave of ups and downs. And I ate so poorly this weekend that I don't think I've lost a single pound since the beginning! I actually feel fatter!! wah. Whatever. I'm doing the best I can right now!
Some things that I've made or am planning on making:
- (made these last night) - Pumpkin, oatmeal, apple butter "cookie-cakes" I'm calling them, because they are SO moist and cake-y.....but they're super healthy (no oil or butter and mostly brown instead of white sugar), and they're delicious. Threw a couple choc. chips in a few and some raisins/pecans in others.... yUM!
- (made this last night too) - Chicken, rice, lots of veggies and low fat cream cheese/cream chic. soup/evap milk/little bit of cheese casserole. It's so filling b/c of the rice that you only have to eat a little bit!! I'm gonna have several meals out of this!! But I'm too anxious to make my other fun things so I gave a huge thing of it to Cord. :)
- (making this tonight) - Organic Whole Wheat Mac N Cheese, meatless crumbles, tom, green pep, onion, cheese, spices casserole!!! I made this for EM's debate watching party and it turned out really good!! So I'm pumped about that.
- also got some great snacky things and healthy bean dips and whatnot. Gonna make my own guac tonight, which will be fun. Good times.
Hopefully this will make up for the 14 lbs of food I inhaled at Loveless Cafe Sat. Night....
Saturday, October 18, 2008
CAPTURE MUSIC CITY!!
WELL, IT'S OFFICIAL!! I'M A PUBLISHED PHOTOGRAPHER!!
I could not be more excited!!!
To those of you who don't have a clue what I'm talking about, I'll elaborate for ya. Several months ago, I entered a photography competition called Capture Music City. Put on by the Tennessean, it was a competition where locals (mostly amateurs or "side-jobbers" like myself) could upload their photos in and of Nashville to be voted on, in hopes of having their photos published in a coffee table book full of photos "capturing music city."
So I entered a few photos, and voted constantly, and asked my friends to help and vote for me, and I MADE IT IN THE BOOK! Not only did I make it in the book, I got TWO photos in the book. I am SHOCKED and so EXCITED!! Out of over 22,000 photos submitted, 880 photographers competing, and over one MILLION votes, two of my photos were selected to be in the book of only about 200 photos. This is such an amazing feeling!!
It's crazy to think that just two years ago I took a cool picture and thought, "hmm, this is neat. Maybe I'll try and actually attempt to take a cool photograph!" Now, after lots of practice, money invested in gear, and a passion that I have "developed" for photography (pun totally intended haha!!), I have the privilege of being voted and selected to be in an amazing photo book of Nashville. This is such a huge deal for me. So thank you to everyone who has supported me by voting for me, purchasing my photos, using me for your event, and also people who have just been there!!! You have no idea how much you are appreciated!!!
You can check out my CMC photos that made it in the book here and here. Enjoy! And if you are looking for a great gift idea or book about Nashville, this one really is a great book!!! I know you can get it at Davis-Kidd, but I'm not sure where else they're going to be selling it.
Ok, that's all the blabbing I can do, but YAY!!! YAY!! hahaha!! YAY! :-)
Thursday, October 16, 2008
choo freaking choo
So, the health train has hit a few bumps, but in general is doing pretty well.... I'm just so over this!! Can I please go get my fat sucked out, my face fat melted away, and everything smoothed out? Please?
I don't mean to sound bitter....but I hate lettuce. I am so busy that I haven't had a chance to get to the grocery store and buy healthy things that are interesting and fun. I need a rejuvination.
I need TIME. I need a VACATION. I need a miracle. I doubt that I will be looking like Heidi Klum by Dec 1. (mind you, I know that that is never going to be a realistic goal, but a girl can dream, can't she?)
Someone make me a skinny bitch.
.please.
I don't mean to sound bitter....but I hate lettuce. I am so busy that I haven't had a chance to get to the grocery store and buy healthy things that are interesting and fun. I need a rejuvination.
I need TIME. I need a VACATION. I need a miracle. I doubt that I will be looking like Heidi Klum by Dec 1. (mind you, I know that that is never going to be a realistic goal, but a girl can dream, can't she?)
Someone make me a skinny bitch.
.please.
Monday, October 13, 2008
turtle
*I meant to post this blog on Sunday, but it didn't happen. So here we go.*
I almost ran over a turtle today while driving by my house. I was so sad because I just knew that the fools behind me were not as considerate and caring as myself, and that they would just run over it. I was wrong. Every single car behind me swerved to miss this little turtle crossing the street. It was very heartwarming. Made me feel a little better about people and their love of turtles.
I almost ran over a turtle today while driving by my house. I was so sad because I just knew that the fools behind me were not as considerate and caring as myself, and that they would just run over it. I was wrong. Every single car behind me swerved to miss this little turtle crossing the street. It was very heartwarming. Made me feel a little better about people and their love of turtles.
I went to the Everybodyfields show at the Belcourt. Two things:
1) Opening act, Theresa Andersson, fucking incredible. Wow. Violas, dulcimers, drums, killer vocals, guitar, tambourine, all looped to make an incredible show. Mixed with an intense and light-hearted stage presence, I was literally awe-stricken. Speechless. I couldn't describe how amazing she was. I bought the CD, and it's amazing. Please, for your own sake, check her out.
2) Main act - The Everybodyfields - well, I really like this band. They're one of my favorites, which is why I feel so strongly about this show. I am mad at them right now. Lead singer dude was so wasted that I couldn't understand a single word that came out of his mouth. He couldn't sing a freaking note. He was drinking on stage (which is fine to me if you're not already DRUNK), and he made strange, uncomfortable comments to the crowd. The poor girl in the band was so irritated and uncomfortable herself that she spent the entire show watching him to make sure he wasn't going to fuck something up drastically. It was bad. I was insulted. I want my $16.50 back. People barely even clapped after some of the songs. I heard some people commenting about how uncomfortable he made them feel for the entire show (keep in mind, at the Belcourt, it's not like you can turn around and talk to your friend and ignore the band. You are there, sitting, watching whatever is on stage.) I even heard fans after the show commenting on how strange and uncomfortable the entire evening was. I would advise them not to piss off Nashville again, or they might just get screwed in a town where it's hard to find loyalty and crowds are usually not very embracing. We embraced them at the last Belcourt show where they were incredible....but now I'm a little angry and might not see them next time they're in town. I'll give them some time to work their internal shit out before I spend another $20 to feel awkward for three hours.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
buffalo style
So, I am in LOVE with the buffalo chik'n nuggets I mentioned yesterday. THEY ARE SO FREAKING GOOD!! I can't imagine ever going back to eating a buffalo style chicken tender again! I don't have to worry about biting into a piece of some foreign part of the chicken, and this is SO much healthier! Don't get me wrong, I probably will delve into some real chicken tenders on a special occasion, but these are a great, healthy replacement! Paired with a side of cheesy broccoli (the green giant single servings - amazing) I'm FULL!
Today I woke up feeling slimmer. My stomach looks like it's finally returning to normal. I feel good.
I do feel like I'm getting a little redundant on my health and food blogging, so I will at least mention something else going on in the world, because though I may think I am, I am not the center of the universe...
Nashville is hosting the presidental debate tonight. I am so freaking pumped. Also pumped about the ladies vegetarian potluck debate watching party I'm attending. HA! I'm excited that 1) I'm finally taking an interest in politics, and 2) that Nashville is getting so much press right now. I'm proud of this city - I hope the media puts some good spin on how awesome this place is. :)
Today I woke up feeling slimmer. My stomach looks like it's finally returning to normal. I feel good.
I do feel like I'm getting a little redundant on my health and food blogging, so I will at least mention something else going on in the world, because though I may think I am, I am not the center of the universe...
Nashville is hosting the presidental debate tonight. I am so freaking pumped. Also pumped about the ladies vegetarian potluck debate watching party I'm attending. HA! I'm excited that 1) I'm finally taking an interest in politics, and 2) that Nashville is getting so much press right now. I'm proud of this city - I hope the media puts some good spin on how awesome this place is. :)
Monday, October 6, 2008
goings-on
So, some food updates, ideas, and things I've seen....
Day 8!!! And feeling GREAT. ha. i couldn't resist.
First off, wow for the weekend. I ate like the word "health" wasn't even in my vocab! Friday night Cord and I had plans of going on a nice date - you know, dinner and movie. Nothing spectacular. But long overdue. Well, after a few beers at Red Door, we instead decided to eat Hot Italian Beef for dinner and just go home and rent a movie. There were no good movies that we could rationalize spending $7 on for an on-demand HD movie, so we free-movied Donnie Darko (which Cord had never seen) and we both passed out quite early. Needless to say, it was a fun night filled with beer and bad-for-me food. But oh so fun. And, my roomate made pumpkin bread pudding and made the mistake of telling me to have as much as I want. Bad news bears.
Saturday, we babysat for Cord's boss' 4 year old son. SO IN LOVE!! He is a ball of energy, but SO sweet and such a good kid. We had a blast! We did eat some pizza though, so sin #3 of the weekend!! Then we went to Red Door yet again, and drank moore beer. Sin #4, 5, 6.....10
By Sunday I was so sick of eating like a fat man that I went to Kroger and got lots of healthy foodages. I have a bowl of raw peppers and cucumber that I can use for a snack or to throw on some lettuce for a great little salad. Oh, and speaking of lettuce....
I have a strange relationship with lettuce, as you might know from reading previous posts of mine. But mostly, it's just so hard to keep fresh, it's not accessible, and it's just been an overall pain for me. SO, I've still been trying to perfect my method of lettuce storage, preservation, and comsumption. I think I've found a good method. Buy a head of lettuce, rinse it. Chop it up into sections and store in a large (with some space so it's not all smooshed together, thus becoming slimy) tupperware container in the fridge. This way, it's already cut for you so you're more tempted to eat it and put it in things....and it is very accessible. I think it's going to be the start of a new relationship between muggins and lettuce.
So, some other exciting things I'm amped about eating that I got: Morningstar buffalo "chik" nuggets - mmmm.....also got some meatless crumbles and some organic mac n cheese that I might throw together.....and last night I made (thanks to the inspiration from Orange Bicycle) whole wheat penne with chicken apple sausage in a marinara sauce. and MMMM it's yummy! Especially with some of that bad ass cheese from Whole Foods. Heaven!!
So, with all that said, I definitely think the key to eating healthy (and stick with it) is to ENJOY it and to actually take the time to make tasty, healthy, fun, exciting things to eat and you won't get burned out!! Like anything, you gotta keep it interesting!
Speaking of keeping healthy eating fun and exciting....In my daily Hungry-Girl email today, I saw this. What a great idea!!
until next time....
Day 8!!! And feeling GREAT. ha. i couldn't resist.
First off, wow for the weekend. I ate like the word "health" wasn't even in my vocab! Friday night Cord and I had plans of going on a nice date - you know, dinner and movie. Nothing spectacular. But long overdue. Well, after a few beers at Red Door, we instead decided to eat Hot Italian Beef for dinner and just go home and rent a movie. There were no good movies that we could rationalize spending $7 on for an on-demand HD movie, so we free-movied Donnie Darko (which Cord had never seen) and we both passed out quite early. Needless to say, it was a fun night filled with beer and bad-for-me food. But oh so fun. And, my roomate made pumpkin bread pudding and made the mistake of telling me to have as much as I want. Bad news bears.
Saturday, we babysat for Cord's boss' 4 year old son. SO IN LOVE!! He is a ball of energy, but SO sweet and such a good kid. We had a blast! We did eat some pizza though, so sin #3 of the weekend!! Then we went to Red Door yet again, and drank moore beer. Sin #4, 5, 6.....10
By Sunday I was so sick of eating like a fat man that I went to Kroger and got lots of healthy foodages. I have a bowl of raw peppers and cucumber that I can use for a snack or to throw on some lettuce for a great little salad. Oh, and speaking of lettuce....
I have a strange relationship with lettuce, as you might know from reading previous posts of mine. But mostly, it's just so hard to keep fresh, it's not accessible, and it's just been an overall pain for me. SO, I've still been trying to perfect my method of lettuce storage, preservation, and comsumption. I think I've found a good method. Buy a head of lettuce, rinse it. Chop it up into sections and store in a large (with some space so it's not all smooshed together, thus becoming slimy) tupperware container in the fridge. This way, it's already cut for you so you're more tempted to eat it and put it in things....and it is very accessible. I think it's going to be the start of a new relationship between muggins and lettuce.
So, some other exciting things I'm amped about eating that I got: Morningstar buffalo "chik" nuggets - mmmm.....also got some meatless crumbles and some organic mac n cheese that I might throw together.....and last night I made (thanks to the inspiration from Orange Bicycle) whole wheat penne with chicken apple sausage in a marinara sauce. and MMMM it's yummy! Especially with some of that bad ass cheese from Whole Foods. Heaven!!
So, with all that said, I definitely think the key to eating healthy (and stick with it) is to ENJOY it and to actually take the time to make tasty, healthy, fun, exciting things to eat and you won't get burned out!! Like anything, you gotta keep it interesting!
Speaking of keeping healthy eating fun and exciting....In my daily Hungry-Girl email today, I saw this. What a great idea!!
until next time....
Friday, October 3, 2008
quickie
Just a quick food review. I felt the need.
(one). Buy this. eat it. love it. dream about it. Just ate some and this will now become part of my life. Yes, it tastes as good as it smells. Frick, it's good. And not overbearing on cals either!! A decent, healthy, tasty lunch!
(two). What is your take on this milk? (mulk on a bad day, thanks to EM). Personally, I like it.....Kinda. For some reason (and this might just be my nutty brain receptors) but the aftertaste is strange. It tastes "smoked." Like, as in smoked salmon or smoked meat of some sort.... it is the strangest thing ever! Has anyone else experienced this phenomenon?
that is all. carry on.
(one). Buy this. eat it. love it. dream about it. Just ate some and this will now become part of my life. Yes, it tastes as good as it smells. Frick, it's good. And not overbearing on cals either!! A decent, healthy, tasty lunch!
(two). What is your take on this milk? (mulk on a bad day, thanks to EM). Personally, I like it.....Kinda. For some reason (and this might just be my nutty brain receptors) but the aftertaste is strange. It tastes "smoked." Like, as in smoked salmon or smoked meat of some sort.... it is the strangest thing ever! Has anyone else experienced this phenomenon?
that is all. carry on.
mango chicken
I made a great meal last night for dinner. It was freaking fabulous. After the gym (amazing workout by the way, but I have somehow effed my back up - roar) I was summoned into Whole Foods by it's gravitational pull that if you get within a mile of the place you have no choice but to enter and spend lots of money. It was actually really theraputic. I love Whole Foods. I always feel like they have so much more to offer me. Like they're speaking right to me. They know my needs. ha. But really, I bought this cheese that was $23 a POUND. Luckily, I only got a sliver. For $7. But it was so worth it. I got some other cheese that orange bicycle got me into called Amadeus. MMMM.
I also purchased some organic chocolate milk (holy cow it's good. ha. get it? cow?) anyway, and some mango black bean salsa. Holy MOLY! (get it? moly? nevermind.) So yea, got some goodies and came home totally inspired and I made this:
Garlic herb potatoes, sweet corn, and a lovely grilled chicken breast with the mango black bean salsa on top. I freaking "mmmd" after every bite. I didn't want it to end. I was so impressed!! Even though all I did was cook the chicken, I didn't care. It worked! The photo doesn't do it justice....
I am feeling so good after a work week of healthy eating and some exercise. Let's see if I can make it happen through the weekend.
bueno.
I also purchased some organic chocolate milk (holy cow it's good. ha. get it? cow?) anyway, and some mango black bean salsa. Holy MOLY! (get it? moly? nevermind.) So yea, got some goodies and came home totally inspired and I made this:
Garlic herb potatoes, sweet corn, and a lovely grilled chicken breast with the mango black bean salsa on top. I freaking "mmmd" after every bite. I didn't want it to end. I was so impressed!! Even though all I did was cook the chicken, I didn't care. It worked! The photo doesn't do it justice....
I am feeling so good after a work week of healthy eating and some exercise. Let's see if I can make it happen through the weekend.
bueno.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
oh, lettuce.
Day 4. (I'll include day 3 in this post as well b/c I didn't make it yesterday)......
Oh lettuce, how I loathe thee.
I wish you were more filling.
I wish you made me happy.
I wish you tasted like a cheese pizza.
But instead, you taste like......
lettuce.
Why are you so big and hard to eat?
Why do I leave you, still hungry?
Oh lettuce, how I loathe thee.
You do not satisfy me.
Oh, lettuce, how I loathe thee.
I've lost 2 pounds. Not a huge deal, but it made me feel better when my wii fit didn't yell at me for once!
It's funny, how the longer you eat healthy, the less you think about bad foods. I remember this from the last time I lost weight. It's like they're off your radar or something. I'm ready to hit that point. Having only been "hardcore" in my mind for four days, I am still in the "craving everything bad that I typically wouldn't eat even if I wasn't being super healthy" mode, because my mind is telling me to want what I won't allow myself to have.
For example, yesterday - super healthy. Ate well, didn't have time to get to the Y so I power walked around the block with my roommate (and oh yes, power - we were truckin'). I had barely any dinner, then my roommate brought in two mini turkey burgers that she had made (now, ground turkey, homemade burger, non-greasy - pretty o.k.) so I ate them. THEN, cord comes over. He's starving, tired, and sore from a long couple days....so I went to Wendy's to get him a burger. My insane self decided that I would get myself a small nestle quick chocolate milk (tres cute by the way) and a small fry. *side note - it's strange to see the singular of "fries" - is it "fry?" am I nuts?*
So anyway, I get these things - I know it wasn't the worst thing I could have gotten on that menu by FAR, but I still did it. Something I would have NEVER done had I not been trying to eat so damn healthy. Why do our minds make us suffer so? Why do we CRAVE the worst things when even though our habits haven't really changed too drastically, our minds are set on "super health" overdrive and we feel like those foods are sexy, forbidden, illegal, BAD and SO GOOD?!!
I seriously want to bathe in a vat of chocolate cheese meat icing peanut butter cheese. cheese. cheese.
today i've been so freaking uber good i'm making myself sick. raw broccoli makes me burp and is overrated.
yay for two pounds.
Oh lettuce, how I loathe thee.
I wish you were more filling.
I wish you made me happy.
I wish you tasted like a cheese pizza.
But instead, you taste like......
lettuce.
Why are you so big and hard to eat?
Why do I leave you, still hungry?
Oh lettuce, how I loathe thee.
You do not satisfy me.
Oh, lettuce, how I loathe thee.
I've lost 2 pounds. Not a huge deal, but it made me feel better when my wii fit didn't yell at me for once!
It's funny, how the longer you eat healthy, the less you think about bad foods. I remember this from the last time I lost weight. It's like they're off your radar or something. I'm ready to hit that point. Having only been "hardcore" in my mind for four days, I am still in the "craving everything bad that I typically wouldn't eat even if I wasn't being super healthy" mode, because my mind is telling me to want what I won't allow myself to have.
For example, yesterday - super healthy. Ate well, didn't have time to get to the Y so I power walked around the block with my roommate (and oh yes, power - we were truckin'). I had barely any dinner, then my roommate brought in two mini turkey burgers that she had made (now, ground turkey, homemade burger, non-greasy - pretty o.k.) so I ate them. THEN, cord comes over. He's starving, tired, and sore from a long couple days....so I went to Wendy's to get him a burger. My insane self decided that I would get myself a small nestle quick chocolate milk (tres cute by the way) and a small fry. *side note - it's strange to see the singular of "fries" - is it "fry?" am I nuts?*
So anyway, I get these things - I know it wasn't the worst thing I could have gotten on that menu by FAR, but I still did it. Something I would have NEVER done had I not been trying to eat so damn healthy. Why do our minds make us suffer so? Why do we CRAVE the worst things when even though our habits haven't really changed too drastically, our minds are set on "super health" overdrive and we feel like those foods are sexy, forbidden, illegal, BAD and SO GOOD?!!
I seriously want to bathe in a vat of chocolate cheese meat icing peanut butter cheese. cheese. cheese.
today i've been so freaking uber good i'm making myself sick. raw broccoli makes me burp and is overrated.
yay for two pounds.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
broccoli is big.
Day 2.
Feeling amazing today. And it's nice to know why. Nice little 25 min cardio workout last night did so much, along with my healthy food day! Seriously, the bursting-pants effect even feels so much smaller today...
I ended up making some fab chicken (sauteed in a few sprays of PAM with garlic, onions and mushrooms) and a HUGE salad last night for din din. I was totally full!! It was such a nice feeling!
Today:
Breakfast: These are AMAZING! Serving size is three, but two is plenty, especially when you're putting one on 1/2 of a whole wheat bagel and mushing it together to make fabulousness. And eating it with a yummy banana.
Fab salad for lunch, and plans of more chicken are in my evening plans....possibly a little black bean action? We'll see.
I'm going to see Nights in Rodanthe tonight with my roommate and her friend. I don't know why I'm going to subject myself to this torture of holding back tears through a movie that I know will make me cry, but I think I could use a good cry to be honest. I'm happy, but I just haven't cried in a while....and it really feels good to sometimes. I just hate the "holding back tears during a movie" feeling....it makes me stuffy.
So this is the dressing I'm currently eating on my lunchtime salad with extremely large impossible to eat pieces of broccoli:
Evidently, Paul Newman died. Evidently, Paul Newman was a famous actor that I've never heard of. The other folk at the office gave me the 3rd degree that I didn't know who he was. Oh well, I'm freaking young people!! Do you know who Ted from Hey Dude is? I don't think so.
Monday, September 29, 2008
.the health starts here.
So, today is day one.
Day one of trying my hardest to be freaking healthy. To lose weight. To be thin again. What happened to my nice little body? Oh, I'll tell you what happened. Stupid birth control, for one, paired with a lack of exercise and not the best food decisions, and I've gained about 8 pounds. Last year (wow maybe even longer ago than that) I lost 30 pounds. I have gained back about 10 of those pounds. I've felt pretty dang good up until recently, so the time is now. Time to get back in shape.
I'm going on my yearly trip to a far away land again this year. December 1. December 1 is my deadline to be fit. To enjoy getting in a bathing suit and saying, "hmm...I look pretty dang ok!" Jamaica will not enjoy me as much if I'm uncomfortable with my body the whole time. I will hate myself in pictures if I'm a chunker. Time to get with the program.
I've decided to try and blog every day (or at least every weekday) about my struggles and trials with losing weight. And I'm asking for suggestions. I know that good eating paired with good exercise is what works for me. No crazy diets, no hard core meds. Just lifestyle changes that I need to get back on track. I have maintained my weight loss for quite some time now and I don't want to get off the health train. Because once you get off, it freaking leaves your ass in the dust...choo choo m'r f'ers.
So, feel free to give your input. If you too are trying to get back on the health train, jump on with me and let's do this together! Give me your comments and ideas and please, some encouragement.....because motivation is so hard for me to find.
Today was day one. I feel huge. I am popping out of my jeans. Shit, I feel like I'm even popping out of my hoodie!! WHO POPS OUT OF A HOODIE??!! eff. Thank God I started this when I did! Mind you, I've had some very strange gastro-intestinal issues going on lately (I won't divulge any further) but I think that's to blame for some of my bloat feeling.
I ate pretty healthy today. Summary:
Breakfast (gorgeous): This, my friends, is 1/2 of a whole wheat bagel with some reduced fat pb and apple slices with a few drizzles of honey, paired with some fruit and a cup of hot tea (in my favorite cup ever from my home town.)
Lunch: Lean Cuisine Butternut Squash (pretty dang good!) I recommend it.
Snack: the other half of the b-fast apple with some reduced fat crunchy pb and a few drops of honey.
Now I'm going to the gym for some cardio and tonight I will be eating chicken breast and veg. I bought a big bag of indiv. wrapped chick. breasts yesterday so hopefully I can just make one at a time when it's just me.
We'll see if I make it to day two. ;-)
ugh, can't i just wake up skinny?
Day one of trying my hardest to be freaking healthy. To lose weight. To be thin again. What happened to my nice little body? Oh, I'll tell you what happened. Stupid birth control, for one, paired with a lack of exercise and not the best food decisions, and I've gained about 8 pounds. Last year (wow maybe even longer ago than that) I lost 30 pounds. I have gained back about 10 of those pounds. I've felt pretty dang good up until recently, so the time is now. Time to get back in shape.
I'm going on my yearly trip to a far away land again this year. December 1. December 1 is my deadline to be fit. To enjoy getting in a bathing suit and saying, "hmm...I look pretty dang ok!" Jamaica will not enjoy me as much if I'm uncomfortable with my body the whole time. I will hate myself in pictures if I'm a chunker. Time to get with the program.
I've decided to try and blog every day (or at least every weekday) about my struggles and trials with losing weight. And I'm asking for suggestions. I know that good eating paired with good exercise is what works for me. No crazy diets, no hard core meds. Just lifestyle changes that I need to get back on track. I have maintained my weight loss for quite some time now and I don't want to get off the health train. Because once you get off, it freaking leaves your ass in the dust...choo choo m'r f'ers.
So, feel free to give your input. If you too are trying to get back on the health train, jump on with me and let's do this together! Give me your comments and ideas and please, some encouragement.....because motivation is so hard for me to find.
Today was day one. I feel huge. I am popping out of my jeans. Shit, I feel like I'm even popping out of my hoodie!! WHO POPS OUT OF A HOODIE??!! eff. Thank God I started this when I did! Mind you, I've had some very strange gastro-intestinal issues going on lately (I won't divulge any further) but I think that's to blame for some of my bloat feeling.
I ate pretty healthy today. Summary:
Breakfast (gorgeous): This, my friends, is 1/2 of a whole wheat bagel with some reduced fat pb and apple slices with a few drizzles of honey, paired with some fruit and a cup of hot tea (in my favorite cup ever from my home town.)
Lunch: Lean Cuisine Butternut Squash (pretty dang good!) I recommend it.
Snack: the other half of the b-fast apple with some reduced fat crunchy pb and a few drops of honey.
Now I'm going to the gym for some cardio and tonight I will be eating chicken breast and veg. I bought a big bag of indiv. wrapped chick. breasts yesterday so hopefully I can just make one at a time when it's just me.
We'll see if I make it to day two. ;-)
ugh, can't i just wake up skinny?
Bear Shit.
A few pics from Bear Shit Hike '08. Quite a time.
This is bear poop.
We weren't supposed to go there. This was the sign we saw on the way back.
Girls showing off our booties. Trying to scare the bears away.
We made it through alive. ;-)
Monday, September 22, 2008
bertolli
I love this stuff. The chicken florente and farfalle, mmm....with spinach in an alfredo sauce. Holy cow. I know it's not the best thing for you in the world, but dang, it's delicious.
Just got back from the "bear shit hike 08" - will post a few pics when I get a chance. All I can say is, wow - I'm glad we're alive!! haha! (it really wasn't that bad, but definitely got a bit scary at times.)
Just got back from the "bear shit hike 08" - will post a few pics when I get a chance. All I can say is, wow - I'm glad we're alive!! haha! (it really wasn't that bad, but definitely got a bit scary at times.)
Friday, September 19, 2008
you know you're hungry when......
....a sharpie smells like a hot fabulous cheesy pizza.
gosh, i'm hungry.
mellow mushroom super fab greek salad, here i come! :)
some of the work ladies are going to Gatlinburg this weekend for the second annual Long Ass Hike. Not really, it's just going to be about a 4 miler this year - but last year, yes, that was a long ass hike!! 8 miles! whoa nelly. but i loved it.
i will post pics upon our return. we're going to have a blast. i can't wait!
gosh, i'm hungry.
mellow mushroom super fab greek salad, here i come! :)
some of the work ladies are going to Gatlinburg this weekend for the second annual Long Ass Hike. Not really, it's just going to be about a 4 miler this year - but last year, yes, that was a long ass hike!! 8 miles! whoa nelly. but i loved it.
i will post pics upon our return. we're going to have a blast. i can't wait!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
scarves and hoodies
yay for the nice weather - about DANG time! i finally went and bought a few fall articles.
i am fat. i need to simmer with the adult beverages.
i've been a sucky blogger lately......so i apologize for the three people who actually read my blog. ha.
i'm just so freaking busy i don't have time to generate thoughts, let alone write them.
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other than that, life is good.
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pumpkins and leaves and all that jazz...
-m
a picture of my lovely grandmother (nana) supporting the Blue Raiders when my fam was in town for an MTSU v MD football game. (GO BLUE, by the WAY!)
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
hello from outer space
Well, not really. Just the way I feel. I've been very spaced these past few days. I think it's the post-long weekend zone out. The boy and I went on a road trip this holiday weekend to a few different places. First, we went to Greenville SC and photographed a wedding for a good friend of mine. It was very difficult, but lots of fun and a great learning experience. AND, the photos turned out great, to boot. Sidenote: Why do people say "to boot" by the way? I often wonder if I hear these phrases and actually just turn them around in my head and they aren't what the words even are, for example....is "to boot" even the word "boot?" what if it's another word? I should learn what things mean before I say them....
Anyway, after lovely Greenville, we went to Asheville and did the Biltmore thing (which is amazing and not as cheesy as we thought it would be) and then did a night and a morning scoping out downtown Asheville. Our thoughts on Asheville were about the same, and disclaimer - I think that because we were there on a dead holiday weekend (which was surprising in itself) - that maybe we got a bad vibe and we're not giving it enough credit. Just wanted to put that out there....
We liked downtown Asheville, and loved that there was nothing commercial about it... not a single golden arch or starbucks in sight (hah - as I sit here and sip my pumpkin spice latte from yours truly). But we thought that the city was lacking something. We couldn't put our fingers on it - it just didn't seem like a very happy town. The people seemed tired. They seemed like they didn't welcome or appreciate the tourists that were more than happy to attempt (key word, attempt) to come drop some tourist dollars and boost their "in need of a boost" city. Nothing was open on a Sunday evening on a national holiday weekend. Nothing opened the next morning until 11am.... If it even opened at all.
The locals we spotted out were either young hippies who seemed to look at us like we were aliens wherever we went, or they were middle aged burnouts who were begging us for money at 10 am on a Monday in the middle of the street like it was no big deal. We discussed it a lot and we don't know if the city just doesn't give a shit and could care less if tourists enjoy it because it's all they need and want, or if they'd like to actually see people walking the streets and they want some life boosted back into the town. It just felt like it was missing some happiness, and some heart. It has so much potential, but didn't seem to care. Maybe that's the beauty in it - that when you go there (as a tourist) you're getting the actual experience - a quasi ghost town where a store may or may not be open, and they're keeping the rest of the world out, whatever it takes. Strange experience, but I would like to give it another chance, maybe on a Saturday. I can't judge it yet. Great art galleries though - we loved the art galleries (that were actually open).
On a totally different topic, this is something that I was thinking today as I was performing one of life's most intimate, personal and disgusting bodily functions next to a co-worker today. Pooping. I find it hilarious that we as humans are totally ok with just going into a stall, shitting, and coming back out like "hey, i just took a big ol' dump. what's up?" Especially, I find it amusing when I am so comfortable with it, that I walk into the bathroom and do a #2 right next to a co-worker of mine while we discuss whatever might be going on at the time. What's your take on public pooping? Or pooping in general? Are you comfortable with just doing it whenever, wherever? Or are you a private, in your home, your significant other doesn't even think you have a booty hole kind of person? Are you so grossed out by it that you can't even discuss it? I'm anxious to know. :)
Anyway, after lovely Greenville, we went to Asheville and did the Biltmore thing (which is amazing and not as cheesy as we thought it would be) and then did a night and a morning scoping out downtown Asheville. Our thoughts on Asheville were about the same, and disclaimer - I think that because we were there on a dead holiday weekend (which was surprising in itself) - that maybe we got a bad vibe and we're not giving it enough credit. Just wanted to put that out there....
We liked downtown Asheville, and loved that there was nothing commercial about it... not a single golden arch or starbucks in sight (hah - as I sit here and sip my pumpkin spice latte from yours truly). But we thought that the city was lacking something. We couldn't put our fingers on it - it just didn't seem like a very happy town. The people seemed tired. They seemed like they didn't welcome or appreciate the tourists that were more than happy to attempt (key word, attempt) to come drop some tourist dollars and boost their "in need of a boost" city. Nothing was open on a Sunday evening on a national holiday weekend. Nothing opened the next morning until 11am.... If it even opened at all.
The locals we spotted out were either young hippies who seemed to look at us like we were aliens wherever we went, or they were middle aged burnouts who were begging us for money at 10 am on a Monday in the middle of the street like it was no big deal. We discussed it a lot and we don't know if the city just doesn't give a shit and could care less if tourists enjoy it because it's all they need and want, or if they'd like to actually see people walking the streets and they want some life boosted back into the town. It just felt like it was missing some happiness, and some heart. It has so much potential, but didn't seem to care. Maybe that's the beauty in it - that when you go there (as a tourist) you're getting the actual experience - a quasi ghost town where a store may or may not be open, and they're keeping the rest of the world out, whatever it takes. Strange experience, but I would like to give it another chance, maybe on a Saturday. I can't judge it yet. Great art galleries though - we loved the art galleries (that were actually open).
On a totally different topic, this is something that I was thinking today as I was performing one of life's most intimate, personal and disgusting bodily functions next to a co-worker today. Pooping. I find it hilarious that we as humans are totally ok with just going into a stall, shitting, and coming back out like "hey, i just took a big ol' dump. what's up?" Especially, I find it amusing when I am so comfortable with it, that I walk into the bathroom and do a #2 right next to a co-worker of mine while we discuss whatever might be going on at the time. What's your take on public pooping? Or pooping in general? Are you comfortable with just doing it whenever, wherever? Or are you a private, in your home, your significant other doesn't even think you have a booty hole kind of person? Are you so grossed out by it that you can't even discuss it? I'm anxious to know. :)
Friday, August 22, 2008
back to earth
I'm back!
I realized that I've been MIA since my big 2-5. I don't understand where the hell the time is going, but it's going somewhere for sure. I guess I've just been busier now than ever....well, since college.
I have been super busy with photography stuff....booking shoots left and right. It's very exciting! I hope it all pans out. I still am not nearly confident enough to shoot a super serious wedding, and don't know if that's even the route I want to go...but I am really enjoying what I've been doing lately. Work has been friggin insane. It's our busiest time of the year and I want to scream. Today, luckily, we get to all scream. For ice cream! We're having an ice cream social. I went and bought all the stuff so I know what we're gonna be able to dig into, and let me tell you. I will be elbow-deep in some crushed oreos, gummy bears, and caramel sauce. And I will not weigh myself afterwards. Nope.
So, I don't know if I mentioned it in my bday blog, but my gift this year from the fam/bf was a wii. A wii and everything to go with it. holy nuts. I'm totally addicted. Cord and I have gotten really into wii fit. I am not joking when I say that it REALLY works. Not only are the physical excercies challenging but they're also fun! And somehow, the mental side of the wii fit really works. It guilt trips you a little if you gain wait, or if you don't workout for a couple days. It's awesome. Really motivating. It keeps score of your progress so you're always wanting to keep going to better your own score, and compete against other people's scores. Only Cord and I have stuff set up on mine, so it's really competitive and fun. He gets so mad when I beat him at things. It's funny, we're both definitely better at different things, which is nice. I like seeing him jog in place and do the warrior I pose. tres cute!
I'm exhausted. I need to start sleeping more.
My dad sent me some bday cash (very unexpected and most welcomed and needed) so I'm going to finally get a film camera. I've been wanting one for about 6 months and the time has finally come! I have been stalking the lomography website forever and I just can't decide which one to get. So today might just be the day I have to make a decision and suck it up and just get one! I'm also going to get a pair of rain boots with my bday money. I am so over wet jeans in the rain.
Now that school is back in session, all the brats park on the street by work, so I'm back to the garage and walking a few feet further (big woop, right). haha, big woop. Anyway, it often puddles up back there when it rains, so now I will able to walk through the puddles without the worry of wet jeans all day. can't wait.
I am feeling very inspired and creative today. Feeling a lot like that lately in general. It's nice.
happy friday to me.
I realized that I've been MIA since my big 2-5. I don't understand where the hell the time is going, but it's going somewhere for sure. I guess I've just been busier now than ever....well, since college.
I have been super busy with photography stuff....booking shoots left and right. It's very exciting! I hope it all pans out. I still am not nearly confident enough to shoot a super serious wedding, and don't know if that's even the route I want to go...but I am really enjoying what I've been doing lately. Work has been friggin insane. It's our busiest time of the year and I want to scream. Today, luckily, we get to all scream. For ice cream! We're having an ice cream social. I went and bought all the stuff so I know what we're gonna be able to dig into, and let me tell you. I will be elbow-deep in some crushed oreos, gummy bears, and caramel sauce. And I will not weigh myself afterwards. Nope.
So, I don't know if I mentioned it in my bday blog, but my gift this year from the fam/bf was a wii. A wii and everything to go with it. holy nuts. I'm totally addicted. Cord and I have gotten really into wii fit. I am not joking when I say that it REALLY works. Not only are the physical excercies challenging but they're also fun! And somehow, the mental side of the wii fit really works. It guilt trips you a little if you gain wait, or if you don't workout for a couple days. It's awesome. Really motivating. It keeps score of your progress so you're always wanting to keep going to better your own score, and compete against other people's scores. Only Cord and I have stuff set up on mine, so it's really competitive and fun. He gets so mad when I beat him at things. It's funny, we're both definitely better at different things, which is nice. I like seeing him jog in place and do the warrior I pose. tres cute!
I'm exhausted. I need to start sleeping more.
My dad sent me some bday cash (very unexpected and most welcomed and needed) so I'm going to finally get a film camera. I've been wanting one for about 6 months and the time has finally come! I have been stalking the lomography website forever and I just can't decide which one to get. So today might just be the day I have to make a decision and suck it up and just get one! I'm also going to get a pair of rain boots with my bday money. I am so over wet jeans in the rain.
Now that school is back in session, all the brats park on the street by work, so I'm back to the garage and walking a few feet further (big woop, right). haha, big woop. Anyway, it often puddles up back there when it rains, so now I will able to walk through the puddles without the worry of wet jeans all day. can't wait.
I am feeling very inspired and creative today. Feeling a lot like that lately in general. It's nice.
happy friday to me.
Friday, August 8, 2008
8.8.08 = 25
I'm 25! aaah!!
today has been the best day.
I really feel so loved. Thank you to everyone who has made me feel uber special. That makes YOU uber special :)
Tonight is going to be full of excitement and love and food and alcohol. I can't wait. Thanks to Emo Mul for providing me with the 5 hour energy drink I needed, and thanks to C. Copperpot for giving me the most amazing cupcakes ever. I heart them. And they heart me. And I heart all of you.
heart heart heart!!
today has been the best day.
I really feel so loved. Thank you to everyone who has made me feel uber special. That makes YOU uber special :)
Tonight is going to be full of excitement and love and food and alcohol. I can't wait. Thanks to Emo Mul for providing me with the 5 hour energy drink I needed, and thanks to C. Copperpot for giving me the most amazing cupcakes ever. I heart them. And they heart me. And I heart all of you.
heart heart heart!!
Thursday, August 7, 2008
quarter of a century
So yea, I'm turning 25 tomorrow. I'm pretty stoked about it. I'm sick of always being called "SO young" by those around me. As if me being two years younger than them is SO young. Whatevs! I'm a kid and proud of it! Well, I'm a kid for 9 more hours at least.... and I've definitely lived the life of a 25 year old...I think I was 25 at age 18 with all the shit I did as a youngin'. I have realized that turning 25, I really need to start saving money. No more being a kid. I'd love to buy a house.
Lots going on lately. Went to FLA, had a blast....nice and relaxing. Now back to the grind, turning 25, and crazy as all get out at work. All day long I've had a "pelvic flutter" - it's for real, look it up. Basically my lower belly is twitching all damn day. My eye was twitching a lot on vacation and earlier this week, so now it's just moved down to my belly. So strange. I was like, hmm, I hope that's not a baby kickin' in there! That better just be water weight that I've been gaining! haha. It is, don't worry. Meggers isn't preggers. Taken a test and everything. Not to get personal, but this new b.c. pill made me blow up and skip a few months so I was a little worried. But the doc said that's perfectly normal. WHAT? THAT'S NORMAL? No thanks, I'll go back to my old pill thank you very much!
God, these flourescent lights are killing my ass. Every few hours I see this white flash. I wonder if it's the IT department at work super syping into my computer and I'm not even noticing it. Well, IT dept -if you're reading my blog, now you know all about my birth control pill. Hope you're happy.
I think I'm suffering from a bit of "post vacation depression" - you know the drill....you get away from the norm for a while, and when you're back, it takes a few days to realize that wow, this is it. I'm actually pretty happy with "it," but damn these flourescent lights :)
My bday celebrations are really exciting. I have 25, yes 25, friends coming to dinner tomorrow night! I didn't know I even had that many friends! We've rented out a big area in the front of Cabana and we're gonna eat, drink, and mingle, and then go to see Daniel Tosh (comedian) at Zanies, then hit up the town for some Agave and honky tonkin'. I'm very much looking forward to everything, and I feel so loved that I have so many people that want to celebrate with me. I am very lucky to have these people in my life. And even though these flourescent lights someday might be the death of me, I'm lucky enough to work under them, and to have met the people I've met working under the same horrible lights. :-) ~zen moment.~..........
a few pics from the FL trip. lots o' fun :)
me noley mom
Lots going on lately. Went to FLA, had a blast....nice and relaxing. Now back to the grind, turning 25, and crazy as all get out at work. All day long I've had a "pelvic flutter" - it's for real, look it up. Basically my lower belly is twitching all damn day. My eye was twitching a lot on vacation and earlier this week, so now it's just moved down to my belly. So strange. I was like, hmm, I hope that's not a baby kickin' in there! That better just be water weight that I've been gaining! haha. It is, don't worry. Meggers isn't preggers. Taken a test and everything. Not to get personal, but this new b.c. pill made me blow up and skip a few months so I was a little worried. But the doc said that's perfectly normal. WHAT? THAT'S NORMAL? No thanks, I'll go back to my old pill thank you very much!
God, these flourescent lights are killing my ass. Every few hours I see this white flash. I wonder if it's the IT department at work super syping into my computer and I'm not even noticing it. Well, IT dept -if you're reading my blog, now you know all about my birth control pill. Hope you're happy.
I think I'm suffering from a bit of "post vacation depression" - you know the drill....you get away from the norm for a while, and when you're back, it takes a few days to realize that wow, this is it. I'm actually pretty happy with "it," but damn these flourescent lights :)
My bday celebrations are really exciting. I have 25, yes 25, friends coming to dinner tomorrow night! I didn't know I even had that many friends! We've rented out a big area in the front of Cabana and we're gonna eat, drink, and mingle, and then go to see Daniel Tosh (comedian) at Zanies, then hit up the town for some Agave and honky tonkin'. I'm very much looking forward to everything, and I feel so loved that I have so many people that want to celebrate with me. I am very lucky to have these people in my life. And even though these flourescent lights someday might be the death of me, I'm lucky enough to work under them, and to have met the people I've met working under the same horrible lights. :-) ~zen moment.~..........
a few pics from the FL trip. lots o' fun :)
me noley mom
you think i'm kidding?
Monday, July 28, 2008
new things
I got these in the mail today. YAY! I have been waiting on them for over a week and I'm tres excited! I bought them on etsy and just had to have them! They are pendants made from Ancient Ming Dynasty pottery shards.....and they're a decent size too! Like about 1.5 inches! I'm keeping the yellow one for moi, and not sure what I'm going to do with the other one - I just couldn't only buy one for some reason!
ugh, i need to curb my spending. whatever, they were cheap. they are one of a kind, and they make me happy. :-)
the gods must be crazy
I watched the opening monologue of this movie last night, and it really made sense...
“…Here you find civilized man. Civilized man refused to adapt himself to his environment. Instead, he adapted his environment to suit him.
So he built cities, roads, vehicles, machinery. And he put up power lines to run his labor-saving devices. But he didn’t know when to stop.
The more he improved his surroundings to make life easier, the more complicated he made it. Now his children are sentenced to years of school, to learn how to survive in this complex and hazardous habitat.
And civilized man, who refused to adapt to his surroundings, now finds he has to adapt and re-adapt every hour of the day to his self-created environment.
For instance, if it’s Monday and 8:00 comes up, you have to dis-adapt from your domestic surroundings…and re-adapt yourself to an entirely different environment. 9:00 means everybody has to look busy. 10:30 means you can stop looking busy for 5 minutes…And then, you have to look busy again. Your day is chopped into pieces. In each segment of time…you adapt to new circumstances.
No wonder some people go off the rails a bit.”
So he built cities, roads, vehicles, machinery. And he put up power lines to run his labor-saving devices. But he didn’t know when to stop.
The more he improved his surroundings to make life easier, the more complicated he made it. Now his children are sentenced to years of school, to learn how to survive in this complex and hazardous habitat.
And civilized man, who refused to adapt to his surroundings, now finds he has to adapt and re-adapt every hour of the day to his self-created environment.
For instance, if it’s Monday and 8:00 comes up, you have to dis-adapt from your domestic surroundings…and re-adapt yourself to an entirely different environment. 9:00 means everybody has to look busy. 10:30 means you can stop looking busy for 5 minutes…And then, you have to look busy again. Your day is chopped into pieces. In each segment of time…you adapt to new circumstances.
No wonder some people go off the rails a bit.”
Food for thought...anyway... so the weekend in review:
*Got a lot done around the house - I am finally moved in! Emptied the last box of shit last night at 11pm~ ugh.
*Saw the Batman movie. Fucking increds. Heath Ledger was amazing - I finally realized how great of an actor he was, and I was sad to think that his career probably would have really gone places after this movie.... sad. But Christian Bale - holy hell Batman. I can't even talk about it. I loved how long the movie was - oh, and we saw it on IMAX which I think made all the difference. Geezus. Amazing!
*Exercise TV on Demand. Now, this is what an hour of my Saturday morning consisted of, and I'm still feeling it. I woke up at 9am, and was like, damnit, I'm fat. I need to work out (side note - I'm fat because my new b.c. pill has packed on about 5 pounds of solid water weight, so I look like a manatee.) Anyway, so yea, I decide that I want to work out. Hmm, I recalled a convo that Chester Copperpot and I had about Exercise TV on Demand. So I turn it on, and realize that there's a whole WORLD of stuff on there!!
I started with "AM Yoga," a nice, 12 minute start up routine that made me sweat a little. Then, once I feel pretty damn awake, I get real ballsy and select "Tae Bo with Billy Banks" (or whatever his name is)... holy cow. All I can say is, I'm very glad that I have never elected to take any of those kickboxing classes at the Y, because now I know how freaking ridiculous I would have looked. Thank GOD that I was in the privacy of my own home, and during the kick/punch quick change, that no one else had to witness the hilarity and sadness of that spectacle. I even had to give up at one point because I just wasn't fast enough. I just started laughing.
So, heart rate WAY UP, sweat pouring off of me, I decide to cool down with another (longer) yoga routine. I got about half way through it when I realized that my blood sugar was probably in the dangerously low level b/c I hadn't eaten a damn thing and I was def. in the negative calorie zone for the day and getting dizzy.....so I stopped. But I feel that I got a GREAT workout! And it was something different. And I didn't have to worry about people seeing me look a fool! I think I'm going to try and stick with it for a while.....see what happens!
Enough about all that.... but the weekend as a whole was great. Got to spend a good amount of time with the bf, and got a lot done, and I'm still sore from a great (however embarrasing it might have been) workout. Going to Florida on Wednesday until next Monday, and wow am I excited. Excited to get away from work for a while, away from Nashville, away from responsibility....away from moving....just away. I really have only taken one actual vacation this year (my weekend trips home are not a vacation by any means) so this will be very nice. I've only taken two days off work this whole year thus far, so I'm definitely looking forward to this!!!
bueno.
here's to kickin' it like tae bo...
Monday, July 21, 2008
home is where the mom is
So, went back to the fab state of MD this weekend, and I've decided, it's the most fucking gorgeous place in the WAYOLD!! (said in a new york accent, here's to you aunt charmaine.)
It's beautiful. It's peaceful. It's fun. Why did I leave again? Oh yea, no music biz in good ole' South County (lovingly referred to as SoCo by the locals). I am glad I don't "live" there, but I love visiting. I just wish it could be for more than a few days.
First things first. I inherited a camera from my mum. She gave me her childhood Kokak Brownie Hawkeye, an amazing old box camera which was made from the late 40's through the early 60's. it's OLD. but i love it. and, i think it still works. Here's what it looks like!!
I love it. I can't wait to get a bulb and some film and take some rad medium format photos!
Other things that happened this weekend included....lots of eating (mmmm it was all so delish) lots of drinking (too much) and some good friend-seeing and mom-visiting. Overall, besides the heinous hangover I had on Sunday, it was a great trip. Mom and I layed out by the pool, or, in the pool rather, ALL DAY on Sunday. Literally, for about 6 hours. It was so nice. We talked, laughed, and she tried to nurse me back to health with homemade miami vices (for those of you who don't know, a miami vice is 1/2 strawberry daquri and 1/2 pina colada. mmmm). I first turned her on to them in Jamaica two years ago and she's been hooked ever since. It's the perfect combo of both - not too much of either. Love them.....
Sidenote: I am eating the most amazing chicken salad sandwich right now and for this reason I will never, ever, become a vegetarian.
So yea, the weekend was great. I'm glad to be back, with the exception that I'm kind of Tennessee-d out right now. Don't get me wrong, I love it here. But I need an actual vacation. Like being away from work when I should be at work and everyone else is at work. Not just a weekend home. Next week I'm going to Ormond Beach, FL for 5 days with my mom, sis, my aunt and her two kids (our age). It's our yearly trip to see our Grandparents who live there, and it's always filled with lots of daquiris and food and SUN. So I can't wait. Get the hell away from the office for a while. Nice. Hopefully when I get back, I won't be so hateful. I'm pretty hateful right now.
I turn 25 on August 8th. I'm really excited. I love birthdays. Presents aside, it's getting to be with the people I love and knowing that they love me that makes birthdays amazing. I always feel so lucky to have the friends that I have on my birthday. I feel that in my 25 years on this earth, I've done a lot of good things. I've done a LOT of not-so good things, but I have a great family, fabulous boyfriend who gets me through the day, great friends, and a good job. Wait, great job. It's stressful as hell sometimes, but I am really lucky. Lucky lucky lucky.
warm fuzzies.
my backyard, below.... sigh.
And my Jewell....she makes me smile.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
i hate you.
so i had an idea.
i wanted to create a blog called "i hate you" and just list shit that i hate and have people join and list things that they hate, but damnit, someone beat me to it.
i hate them.
http://www.hate.blogspot.com/
i wanted to create a blog called "i hate you" and just list shit that i hate and have people join and list things that they hate, but damnit, someone beat me to it.
i hate them.
http://www.hate.blogspot.com/
are you so Nashville?
Are you??
One on my submissions happens to be included on this lovely list! I didn't win, but I'm included in "the rest," which is still kind of cool. I had two entries, one of which made the cut. So I'm pretty happy, and feel that I, for the most part, am pretty damn Nashville, and I love it. Emo Mul made the cut too, which is funny, because we are both from Maryland, both imports to Nashville, but we are now, so Nashville. ha.
Read on, and enjoy!
One on my submissions happens to be included on this lovely list! I didn't win, but I'm included in "the rest," which is still kind of cool. I had two entries, one of which made the cut. So I'm pretty happy, and feel that I, for the most part, am pretty damn Nashville, and I love it. Emo Mul made the cut too, which is funny, because we are both from Maryland, both imports to Nashville, but we are now, so Nashville. ha.
Read on, and enjoy!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
anybody want some?
I'll pick you some up at Kroger next time I'm there, but only if you can tell me what the hell it is:
The weekend was good. Went by too fast, but I felt like I got a lot accomplished. I took my friends bridal portraits, my first time in a real life photography studio, and I was scared shitless. We took them here. If you know anyone who is looking to rent out a studio for a shoot, I highly suggest this place. I will post pics up of a few shots when I get them all pertied up. I am 90% moved in to the new home. I love it. It's a great place. I'm slowly coaxing the bf into hanging my blinds for me in my bedroom so I stop showing the neighbors all my goods. I realize that I am way too poor to be living in the neighborhood that I do. All I can say is, when you live three doors down from a country music star, and you drive by their house every day thinking, "nope, never gonna have a house like that..." it gets a little depressing. But screw it - I love my little rental. It's perfect for what I need right now. Except the crazy leak in the kitchen ceiling- which reminds me, I need to call the landlord.
My roomate got a puppy. His name is Cash. He's possibly the cutest thing I've ever seen (besides my own dog in MD of course). Here he is. He smiles:
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
i heart/hate spam
best spam subject of the day:
"Obama recommends Power Enlarge."
wow, those bastards are getting creative. I even OPENED it just to see what was in the email.
heart/hate.
"Obama recommends Power Enlarge."
wow, those bastards are getting creative. I even OPENED it just to see what was in the email.
heart/hate.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
recent favorite foodadges and teeth
It's been a while since a Muggins food review, so here you are:
These are foodages I'm into right now: :-)
1) Kikkoman Corporation - Instant Tofu Miso Soup. TIME OUT. Why when I google this item does it come up on Amazon.com? Why does Amazon sell MISO SOUP? They need to stick to books. For realz.
Anyway, venting aside... I love this soup. Just add some boiling h2O, and you're good to go! It's dang close to the restaurant quality. MMMM.. *hint - I usually use two packs because one is just not enough. I found mine at Kroger in the international food section!
2) Weight Watchers Double Chocolate Muffins! They are amazing!!!
3) I'm sure you all have tried Morningstar products, but I really love the spicy black bean patties! I ate mine today on a whole wheat English muffin, a little bit of cheddar cheese, some light mayo and it was DELISH! Mmmmm I wish I had like 10 more. And it is REALLY filling. Of course, I did just have my ww muffin for dessert, so maybe that's why I'm so full. Those things are HUGE! :)
Well, that's it for my food review.... just love to spread the love of food. Also, check out Hungry Girl for a great guac recipe. Looks tasty and quite healthy!
So, back to life. I'm "moved" into my new place. Right now, my new home is full of boxes. Some full of total crap that needs to just be thrown away, and some full of things that I have NO idea where they're going to go. My roommate swears that I've been married before because I have so many things, it looks like they are all wedding gifts. HA! No, it's just my mother and her goals of making me domesticated some day. I think I'm less domesticated now than I was in college, believe it or not. I don't want to cook, I've gone back to eating frozen meals (for the most part) and never wanting to do anything "home-y."
I just noticed something funny. While spell checking this email (because I just KNEW I had spelled "domesticated" wrong, but I didn't) I noticed that this spellchecker doesn't recognize the word "google." How ridiculous is that? Oh, I also spell ridiculous wrong. Every. Single. Time. But yea, don't you have to sign in with a google account to use this blogger? I just find it ironic.
So yea, back to life. Other than the insane move and dealing with both crazy landlords at once, life is hectic! Effing hectic! Helping my amazing friends Steph and Amber with wedding stuff (which makes me never want to get married!), work, annoying co-workers, yard-sale-ing, attempting to see my bf on a semi-regular basis....it's been busy!
Oh, and I'd like to give a thank you to Emo Mul, for always keeping me on track in our conversations, and I really wish she was here helping me type this blog, because I realized I tangen-ted all over the place.
Oh, one more thing. Answer me this: I'm guessing it's because I grind my teeth to death in my sleep, but I constantly have dreams where my teeth are getting yanked out, or I'm missing teeth, but it's always my molars, never my front teeth. My dreams are very realistic, always in color, always very sensory.. like I can feel the pain or smell the smells, etc. Last night, I could feel the whole in my gums where my teeth once were. Isn't that strange? I wake up and I feel around a little bit and realize I still have teeth!
Any dream analyzers out there have any answers??
:-) fin.
These are foodages I'm into right now: :-)
1) Kikkoman Corporation - Instant Tofu Miso Soup. TIME OUT. Why when I google this item does it come up on Amazon.com? Why does Amazon sell MISO SOUP? They need to stick to books. For realz.
Anyway, venting aside... I love this soup. Just add some boiling h2O, and you're good to go! It's dang close to the restaurant quality. MMMM.. *hint - I usually use two packs because one is just not enough. I found mine at Kroger in the international food section!
2) Weight Watchers Double Chocolate Muffins! They are amazing!!!
3) I'm sure you all have tried Morningstar products, but I really love the spicy black bean patties! I ate mine today on a whole wheat English muffin, a little bit of cheddar cheese, some light mayo and it was DELISH! Mmmmm I wish I had like 10 more. And it is REALLY filling. Of course, I did just have my ww muffin for dessert, so maybe that's why I'm so full. Those things are HUGE! :)
Well, that's it for my food review.... just love to spread the love of food. Also, check out Hungry Girl for a great guac recipe. Looks tasty and quite healthy!
So, back to life. I'm "moved" into my new place. Right now, my new home is full of boxes. Some full of total crap that needs to just be thrown away, and some full of things that I have NO idea where they're going to go. My roommate swears that I've been married before because I have so many things, it looks like they are all wedding gifts. HA! No, it's just my mother and her goals of making me domesticated some day. I think I'm less domesticated now than I was in college, believe it or not. I don't want to cook, I've gone back to eating frozen meals (for the most part) and never wanting to do anything "home-y."
I just noticed something funny. While spell checking this email (because I just KNEW I had spelled "domesticated" wrong, but I didn't) I noticed that this spellchecker doesn't recognize the word "google." How ridiculous is that? Oh, I also spell ridiculous wrong. Every. Single. Time. But yea, don't you have to sign in with a google account to use this blogger? I just find it ironic.
So yea, back to life. Other than the insane move and dealing with both crazy landlords at once, life is hectic! Effing hectic! Helping my amazing friends Steph and Amber with wedding stuff (which makes me never want to get married!), work, annoying co-workers, yard-sale-ing, attempting to see my bf on a semi-regular basis....it's been busy!
Oh, and I'd like to give a thank you to Emo Mul, for always keeping me on track in our conversations, and I really wish she was here helping me type this blog, because I realized I tangen-ted all over the place.
Oh, one more thing. Answer me this: I'm guessing it's because I grind my teeth to death in my sleep, but I constantly have dreams where my teeth are getting yanked out, or I'm missing teeth, but it's always my molars, never my front teeth. My dreams are very realistic, always in color, always very sensory.. like I can feel the pain or smell the smells, etc. Last night, I could feel the whole in my gums where my teeth once were. Isn't that strange? I wake up and I feel around a little bit and realize I still have teeth!
Any dream analyzers out there have any answers??
:-) fin.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
gobbledigook!
Yes, it's the name of the amazing new Sugar Ros song, but it's also what I see when I look at those captchas. Why don't my eyes understand those squiggly letters that are smooshed together and somehow 3-D yet also 2-D. 99% of the time, I am making double (and sometimes triple) attempts to make a comment on someones blog, be a myspace friend, etc. It's funny too, because the words get so much easier to read after the second time. They go from "seR@#$@%@#$%@#$%$#", to "dfdfd." Why must they put the "l's" so close to the "t's" and such. It's HARD TO READ!
It must be my self-diagnosed mild dyslexia.
It must be my self-diagnosed mild dyslexia.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
me,
barely hanging on, but loving every minute of it.
Cord and I took some great pics this weekend. I've got them all over the place, so if you're my facebook or myspace friend, or are currently voting for me in capture music city, I apologize for the over-saturation of the meghann-photo market, but I just freaking love them.
Monday, June 30, 2008
oh, and another thing.
To those Flight of the Conchords fans out there (and soon to be fans once you read my blog and discover how freaking funny these guys are), you need to see Eagle Vs. Shark. also check out the "official website."
We rented it at the buster last night and absolutely loved it! I loved the characters, the cinematography, everything. Love love love. Great flick. I want to go to New Zealand for shiz.
We rented it at the buster last night and absolutely loved it! I loved the characters, the cinematography, everything. Love love love. Great flick. I want to go to New Zealand for shiz.
bottomless.pit.
.....is me. I am eating like there's no tomorrow. Here's what I've eaten today:
-Jimmy Dean Crossiant with Ham Egg Cheese (too many calories to admit, but it was dang tasty!) Not as bad as some, I must add.
- A Bowl of store-bought make it yourself miso soup. (only 60 calories, but only satisfying for a short period of time)
- A Weight Watchers Double Chocolate Muffin/Cupcake? Pretty dang good, and not too bad in the health dept. More cals than the miso for sure.
-Then I came back from my lunch outing with jess (Target = danger) and then I was STARVING. So, I ate a big bowl of rice w/ veggies.
- Still hungry? Yes. I am now eating pretzels. Thank God there's only an hour left of work or I would have found something else to inhale.
What's wrong with me? I've eaten a TON of food today. I seriously feel like on the weekends, I barely eat, but the weekdays, it's all I can think about! UGH! Make it stop!
I think it must be this new B.C. pill. Not only does it make me feel like super psycho woman, but I'm starving and subconsciously thinking that it's making me this way and that I'm gaining weight. I need to buy a scale. No I don't.
Word to the wise: Don't ever try to just google image "bottomless." I didn't even think of the repercussions this would have. Sick. Bottomless pit just didn't do it for me, so I was going to be funny and put a pit of a fruit with something bottomless. Why didn't I think that human bottoms would be the first thing to show up? Sigh....
I love Sirius Radio Channel 26, Left of Center. Damn, it's got some good tunes.
Moving is going to suck this week. Someone come do it for me, please? I will give you a million kisses. (what's funny, is that I just changed "dollars" to "kisses" so some poor soul didn't think I acutally had a mil sitting around somewhere.)
And the Kills ask, "am i the only sour cherry on your fruit stand?"
-Jimmy Dean Crossiant with Ham Egg Cheese (too many calories to admit, but it was dang tasty!) Not as bad as some, I must add.
- A Bowl of store-bought make it yourself miso soup. (only 60 calories, but only satisfying for a short period of time)
- A Weight Watchers Double Chocolate Muffin/Cupcake? Pretty dang good, and not too bad in the health dept. More cals than the miso for sure.
-Then I came back from my lunch outing with jess (Target = danger) and then I was STARVING. So, I ate a big bowl of rice w/ veggies.
- Still hungry? Yes. I am now eating pretzels. Thank God there's only an hour left of work or I would have found something else to inhale.
What's wrong with me? I've eaten a TON of food today. I seriously feel like on the weekends, I barely eat, but the weekdays, it's all I can think about! UGH! Make it stop!
I think it must be this new B.C. pill. Not only does it make me feel like super psycho woman, but I'm starving and subconsciously thinking that it's making me this way and that I'm gaining weight. I need to buy a scale. No I don't.
Word to the wise: Don't ever try to just google image "bottomless." I didn't even think of the repercussions this would have. Sick. Bottomless pit just didn't do it for me, so I was going to be funny and put a pit of a fruit with something bottomless. Why didn't I think that human bottoms would be the first thing to show up? Sigh....
I love Sirius Radio Channel 26, Left of Center. Damn, it's got some good tunes.
Moving is going to suck this week. Someone come do it for me, please? I will give you a million kisses. (what's funny, is that I just changed "dollars" to "kisses" so some poor soul didn't think I acutally had a mil sitting around somewhere.)
And the Kills ask, "am i the only sour cherry on your fruit stand?"
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
shock me like an electric eel
I am totally, whole-heartedly, psycho-ly in HEART with the MGMT album, Oracular Spectacular. My poor work neighbors are probably going to ring my little MGMT-loving neck.
Also, I like to cook. And make saucepan-lid boobs. Photos courtesy of the boyfriend.
Monday, June 23, 2008
tonight is tonight.
two blogs in one day. i'm so cool.
so, some exciting news. i was um, yea, well, ok, fuck it - i was googling myself tonight, and i found something very cool. my photos were featured in a blog! the post is almost "mocking" Nashville as she lives in lovely San Francisco now - so I understand her point of view.... but, the pics are obviously representative of our fab little city!!! check it out!!
so, some exciting news. i was um, yea, well, ok, fuck it - i was googling myself tonight, and i found something very cool. my photos were featured in a blog! the post is almost "mocking" Nashville as she lives in lovely San Francisco now - so I understand her point of view.... but, the pics are obviously representative of our fab little city!!! check it out!!
also, this was my dinner. but it's also my life.
do you ever feel like the lone shell in a box of whole wheat penne?
today is today.
Today is today.
I have bug bites. Like crazy ones. Do I have leprosy?
I hate the fact that it's Monday and not Saturday.
I just had an incredible turkey burger with Swiss and sauteed mushrooms on an English muffin from, believe it or not, Cheeseburger Charlies. It was effing incredible. Not a DROP of grease. I ate the whole thing and feel fab. aaaah...food gives me satisfaction that no man could provide.....maybe?
I also am currently noshing on a direct-from-Heaven chocolate chip cookie that is probably 85% chocolate chip. The best way.
I attempted to go to THE coffee shop again today. Bad choice. Absolutely not a single muffin for sale. Shitty latte. Why do I subject myself to this boo-shee? Because I missed my turn to take the road to the new place. Oh, silly self.
I'm busy. Life, work, life.....life.
I want a vacation. C'mon, who doesn't? I want to go back here. We may be going back in December. It can not come soon enough. *we = the mom and the sis. :)
Damnit. Cookie is gone. Well, it was good while it lasted. I will dream of you, cookie.
The Orange Bicycle just let me get a whiff of some serious cheese. May be an afternoon, post-cookie taste endeavor?
I'm ready to move. We found renters!! I worked my everlovingass of last week trying to find the perfect candidate, and we gave our landlord two different options. So I hope she chooses wisely and we get a break on our July rent. In the new place, I think the walls are wood paneling (yes, it's 1987.) Can I paint those? Anybody know?
I have bug bites. Like crazy ones. Do I have leprosy?
I hate the fact that it's Monday and not Saturday.
I just had an incredible turkey burger with Swiss and sauteed mushrooms on an English muffin from, believe it or not, Cheeseburger Charlies. It was effing incredible. Not a DROP of grease. I ate the whole thing and feel fab. aaaah...food gives me satisfaction that no man could provide.....maybe?
I also am currently noshing on a direct-from-Heaven chocolate chip cookie that is probably 85% chocolate chip. The best way.
I attempted to go to THE coffee shop again today. Bad choice. Absolutely not a single muffin for sale. Shitty latte. Why do I subject myself to this boo-shee? Because I missed my turn to take the road to the new place. Oh, silly self.
I'm busy. Life, work, life.....life.
I want a vacation. C'mon, who doesn't? I want to go back here. We may be going back in December. It can not come soon enough. *we = the mom and the sis. :)
Damnit. Cookie is gone. Well, it was good while it lasted. I will dream of you, cookie.
The Orange Bicycle just let me get a whiff of some serious cheese. May be an afternoon, post-cookie taste endeavor?
I'm ready to move. We found renters!! I worked my everlovingass of last week trying to find the perfect candidate, and we gave our landlord two different options. So I hope she chooses wisely and we get a break on our July rent. In the new place, I think the walls are wood paneling (yes, it's 1987.) Can I paint those? Anybody know?
Sunday, June 22, 2008
why i love blogging.
As a quasi-new member of the blog world, I am still finding things that I love about blogging every day.
Some examples:
One - a friend was having a bad day. a really shitty, bad day. i could see it in her face. i said, "hey man, what's wrong?" She said - "ugh, read my blog." I did. It explained everything. We hugged it out.
Two - I got to experience a blog/real life connection last night when at a party, two blog buddies (who did not know eachother in real life), met in person. I was watching them talk and I thought to myself, I know that this person is Chester Copperpot, and I am going to bet that this person is The Blonde Mule, because I was told by The Orange Bicycle who she was!
I watched them introduce themselves and chat - and then within about 3.2 minutes, they realized, 'WAIT - ARE YOU CHESTER COPPERPOT?? WAIT - ARE YOU THE BLONDE MULE??" It was glorious. I love blogging. Chester turned around and said, and THAT'S Muggins Mouse! I'm kind of new to blogging, so I've only dabbled a little in The Blonde Mule, but I recognized her name and I believe she recognized mine! It was great. Cyber buddies actually now know eachother in real life!
Blogging is amazing, and it gives us a way to vent, brag, complain, question, or just randomly type. Blog therapy, for sure!! No, there is nothing that can beat human interaction, but it's still pretty damn cool.
honest to blog.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
if i was in an 80s hair band.....
I would look like this. That's me, second to left, and center.
It was my third year the Music Row Ladies Golf Tournament, which is always a rockin' great time. Free booze and food all day - not to mention, it's on a Monday, so no workie work. A little bit of golf, a lot of sun, and this year, a lot of aqua net. Every year, teams compete for the best dressed. I think we got the shaft as we looked pretty damn amazing. But, that's ok. We still had a blast!!
Until next year..... :)
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
boobies and babies.
1) Cord had a bday. He had fun. He likes my boob-les.
2) The Orange Bicycle made me a wristlet. I love it. I'm tres excited.
3) I took some baby photos of my friend Lacey and her lovely son. Here's a sampling. I'm very happy with the way they turned out. Beautiful family.
4) It's hot. Effing hot. I want to be on a boat if it's gonna be this damn hot.
2) The Orange Bicycle made me a wristlet. I love it. I'm tres excited.
3) I took some baby photos of my friend Lacey and her lovely son. Here's a sampling. I'm very happy with the way they turned out. Beautiful family.
4) It's hot. Effing hot. I want to be on a boat if it's gonna be this damn hot.
Monday, June 2, 2008
effing quiche.
So, there is a local coffee shop (who will remain nameless) that I really have tried to remain loyal to, but I just don't think I can swing it anymore. I'm going to write a citysearch review on them. And it's not going to be pleasant. Jess thinks I should write a letter, but I'm just to the point where they've lost my business, and my$20+ a week might not affect them, but some other shop will welcome it with open arms I'm sure.
When Caffeine, my favorite of favorite coffee shops, closed down, I started going to this new place. I loved the location, liked the atmosphere, but it just wasn't the same. The following list are the reasons why I will no longer support this business.
1) Bitchy, rude old lady (I'm guessing a manager) who obviously doesn't appreciate her customers. Walks around with the biggest frown on her face. Seems aggravated that people are there. Very strange. I mean, who wants to be in the presence of someone like that?
2) The bones in my chicken salad. Sick.
3) The plastic-y tasting steamed breakfast sandwiches. First off, eew. Who wants a soggy, steamed bagel with chemical tasting ham and cheese?
4) The rude (all but one very nice employee who always makes my day) staff! I can't stand going into a place where the employees actually seem like they're doing me a favor by pouring my coffee!! I'm a PAYING customer, people! I don't come in there thinking I'm better than you, please don't think you're better than me. Just make my fucking latte, smile, and be nice, like I am. Maybe this is my "small-town" coming out, but I love going to a place where they make an effort to remember their regular customers. I'm in there several times a week for the past year almost, and they act like they've never seen me before! I mean, they're never that busy that they can't remember their regulars.
5) The ridiculously high prices. $6 for a latte? No thank you. I'll go to S-bucks and pay $4 for the exact same drink. And it will taste better every time.
6) The inconsistency of quality of their drinks. Last week I had curdled soy in my latte. Every time I'm in there, the drink (I pretty much get the same thing every time) tastes different! It all depends on who you get. That shouldn't be the case. I understand and respect that with a local small business that each person can add their own flair to a drink, but the basic drink has to at least taste similar every time! I want to know what I'm getting, and get what I'm paying for. That is not the case at this place.
And the last two incidents were the "straw," so to speak...
Last week, I had a "free drink" coupon. It's a rewards card where you fill it up, you get a free drink. Similar to several other places. Well, I get the same thing 99% of the time. My $6 latte. UGH. So, I go in last week to redeem my free drink coupon, and I get the same thing that I always get, and PAY for. So, I order, and the girl working goes, "really? is this free? that's a really expensive free drink." I am flabbergasted, and nicely say, "well, I get this every time, so it's kind of relative, right? Actually the guy yesterday felt bad for me because my drinks are always so expensive that he gave me two punches." (as I tried to chuckle shyly). She rudely continued "yea, well, it's still an expensive free drink to order." She gave me my drink and I huffed out, shocked that someone could be so rude. What a bitch! I spend SO much money in that shop, and my FREQUENT shopper free coffee is given to me in such a way, that I am DONE. It wasn't even that tasty, to boot.
Well, this morning, I decide to give them another shot. Actually, I was going to try a different place a little further off my to-work route but I was running late. SO, I go in (craving a muffin) and there's NOTHING. Not a single muffin, no bread, nothing. Dare I try another steamed mess on a bagel, so, I see quiche as a special. I've never had a great experience with their food, so I'm a little skeptical, but I order it anyway. Turkey sausage, spinach, and cheese. Sounds delish, right? So I wait for a good 5 minutes for him to heat up my (very small, expensive slice of) quiche, and take it to work. Fuck coffee, I don't want "her" making it for me, so I get a fruit drink made in some factory somewhere far away from their employees.
I sit down at work with my $7.50 breakfast (UGH) and it's DISGUSTING. A soggy, wet, funky tasting spongy MESS. I got through a few bites and gave up. Instead of light, fluffy, eggy, cheesy, it was soggy, wet, funky, spongy. The eggs were brown because of all the liquid it had soaked up from the sausage. Whoever made this quiche does NOT know how to cook for shit.
So, as I threw away my overpriced, horrible tasting breakfast, I vowed never to go there again. Truth be told, I probably will, but only if I'm desperate.
effing quiche.
When Caffeine, my favorite of favorite coffee shops, closed down, I started going to this new place. I loved the location, liked the atmosphere, but it just wasn't the same. The following list are the reasons why I will no longer support this business.
1) Bitchy, rude old lady (I'm guessing a manager) who obviously doesn't appreciate her customers. Walks around with the biggest frown on her face. Seems aggravated that people are there. Very strange. I mean, who wants to be in the presence of someone like that?
2) The bones in my chicken salad. Sick.
3) The plastic-y tasting steamed breakfast sandwiches. First off, eew. Who wants a soggy, steamed bagel with chemical tasting ham and cheese?
4) The rude (all but one very nice employee who always makes my day) staff! I can't stand going into a place where the employees actually seem like they're doing me a favor by pouring my coffee!! I'm a PAYING customer, people! I don't come in there thinking I'm better than you, please don't think you're better than me. Just make my fucking latte, smile, and be nice, like I am. Maybe this is my "small-town" coming out, but I love going to a place where they make an effort to remember their regular customers. I'm in there several times a week for the past year almost, and they act like they've never seen me before! I mean, they're never that busy that they can't remember their regulars.
5) The ridiculously high prices. $6 for a latte? No thank you. I'll go to S-bucks and pay $4 for the exact same drink. And it will taste better every time.
6) The inconsistency of quality of their drinks. Last week I had curdled soy in my latte. Every time I'm in there, the drink (I pretty much get the same thing every time) tastes different! It all depends on who you get. That shouldn't be the case. I understand and respect that with a local small business that each person can add their own flair to a drink, but the basic drink has to at least taste similar every time! I want to know what I'm getting, and get what I'm paying for. That is not the case at this place.
And the last two incidents were the "straw," so to speak...
Last week, I had a "free drink" coupon. It's a rewards card where you fill it up, you get a free drink. Similar to several other places. Well, I get the same thing 99% of the time. My $6 latte. UGH. So, I go in last week to redeem my free drink coupon, and I get the same thing that I always get, and PAY for. So, I order, and the girl working goes, "really? is this free? that's a really expensive free drink." I am flabbergasted, and nicely say, "well, I get this every time, so it's kind of relative, right? Actually the guy yesterday felt bad for me because my drinks are always so expensive that he gave me two punches." (as I tried to chuckle shyly). She rudely continued "yea, well, it's still an expensive free drink to order." She gave me my drink and I huffed out, shocked that someone could be so rude. What a bitch! I spend SO much money in that shop, and my FREQUENT shopper free coffee is given to me in such a way, that I am DONE. It wasn't even that tasty, to boot.
Well, this morning, I decide to give them another shot. Actually, I was going to try a different place a little further off my to-work route but I was running late. SO, I go in (craving a muffin) and there's NOTHING. Not a single muffin, no bread, nothing. Dare I try another steamed mess on a bagel, so, I see quiche as a special. I've never had a great experience with their food, so I'm a little skeptical, but I order it anyway. Turkey sausage, spinach, and cheese. Sounds delish, right? So I wait for a good 5 minutes for him to heat up my (very small, expensive slice of) quiche, and take it to work. Fuck coffee, I don't want "her" making it for me, so I get a fruit drink made in some factory somewhere far away from their employees.
I sit down at work with my $7.50 breakfast (UGH) and it's DISGUSTING. A soggy, wet, funky tasting spongy MESS. I got through a few bites and gave up. Instead of light, fluffy, eggy, cheesy, it was soggy, wet, funky, spongy. The eggs were brown because of all the liquid it had soaked up from the sausage. Whoever made this quiche does NOT know how to cook for shit.
So, as I threw away my overpriced, horrible tasting breakfast, I vowed never to go there again. Truth be told, I probably will, but only if I'm desperate.
effing quiche.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
in memory of my memorial day.
Home was great this weekend. Not amazing, but great. There were so many ups and downs that I can't really classify it as amazing. Home itself, the water, my dog - were amazing. Family, well, they're family. I love them but wow, they take the life out of me sometimes.
Weekend begins: Noley (my younger sister) and I rent a convertible (why the eff not?) and drive to Delaware to visit my dad. Typical Dad visit - smoking, drinking, eating seafood. I ate my weight in crab legs, oysters, clams, shrimp, and scallops. It was incredible. Dad's girlfriend turned 50, so we made her a cake, she dressed up in a fat suit - it was truly a night to remember.
Weekend continues: Driving back to Deale with my sister, top down, 80 degrees outside... sun on the shoulders. Perfect. I love her. Back in Deale, great to see my mom, but I know she's somewhat unhappy. Why? because she told me so. That is very painful to hear from the woman who I have always thought had it all together. I know her unhappiness is temporary. She is walking around on a broken leg, owns a swimming pool store and it's May, and is just stressed. Her leg is limiting her, and she can't stand it. She tries to do things with the broken leg that she'd never even try to do without one. Very strange.
Weekend ends: This is the day from heaven and hell all at once. I suppose that being raised with the typical Catholic guilt bred in my system, I was always told that when something bad happened to me that it was "God punishing me." Ok, sure. Well, whatever I did to piss the big man off, he got me back for it yesterday. He got me real good.
Morning begins: After an evening of cleaning up my best friend's puke out of my mom's imported sink (that doesn't drain puke very well), we wake up to find that her friend has puked on my mom's heirloom rug, couch, and pillows. Not only has she puked and totally blew it off like it was no big deal, whatever she drank was BRIGHT RED. Like she drank a bottle of cherry-flavored syrup, is what I would compare it to. UGH.
So needless to say, mom is FURIOUS. Broken-legged, she starts vacuuming, cleaning, and I can tell she's so very upset. We get everyone out of the house and then we spend the next few hours fighting, crying, and apologizing. But we're all very upset with some things that were happening. We had plans to go out on the boat with my mom's boyfriend, who decided he would invite other people out on the boat and made the plans around them, so we were upset about that. After more fighting and crying, we decide to say "fuck it" and to go Annapolis to go on the boat. Best friend bails out b/c she's hungover. I'm sad.
Boat time: Mom has a broken leg. Mom is stubborn and thinks she is superwoman. Mom gets wasted, which makes the previous two issues exponentially worse. I can't help but think about how she told me she was unhappy, and no matter how hard I tried to enjoy the gorgeous water, I couldn't stop thinking about her sadness, so I was sad. Yes, there was a lot of fun going on, but it was definitely overshadowed by her. It was still beautiful, but sad.
Travel time: Crying when I took the exit for the airport as mom and sister went towards home. I didn't care about the wind in my hair, the sun on my back, I just cried. I want to go home and help. I get over myself, and I get to the airport. Budget rental car blows holes. Waiting in line while other people keep going up to the counter, totally acting like they don't see the line. Whatever people. I have a flight to catch. I get very irritated, because I'm only waiting in line because something was mixed up and they couldn't return my car the normal way. Get on the plane. The guy next to me was weird. Creepy. Eerily still the entire flight, like he was preparing to do something awful. I kept thinking he was going to blow up the plane at any minute. Fall in and out of a strange sleep, where I kept having little scary nightmares. Get off the plane, I'm sick as shit. Have to run to the airport bathroom. Start sweating. Great, I think, that creepy guy released a virus on the plane. (I admit, I've watched too much 24.) Back is killing me.
Get in my car, get home. THANK GOD. Oh, except there is a stick on my windshield. I stop my car, get out to remove the stick, and when my car starts ROLLING FORWARD, with me half out of it, I realize, SHIT, I'm still in drive. At this point, I'm so exhausted, I couldn't even comprehend what was happening. Luckily, all that was in front of me was woods, but I was definitely in them, my body half hanging out of my car. It took me a minute to realize what was happening too....like, why am I getting run over here? It hurt pretty badly.
Get in my room. Thank God for something about this day. Cord. He listened to me whine for a half hour. Take my clothes off, I am covered in some sort of rash. Sick. I'm having the worst day of my life, really. What did I do, God? What did I do? Thanking him for cuddles, I finally fall asleep after the longest day in history. Happy Memorial Day to me. This one will be hard to get out of my memory.
I Wake up. Today is a new day. I look at my pictures from the weekend and realize that the weekend as a whole was great. Not every trip is going to be paradise, perfect, and amazing. That's the thing about family. You take it all - the bad and the good. The drunk and the sober, the injured and the healthy. I've had all of those experiences this weekend. I'm glad to be back in my normal life, but I want to go back and just hug my parents, cuddle with my dog, and smell the salty air. Feel the bay water on my face. Close my eyes and feel the sun on my shoulders.....
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